Talk to Me
| Chapter 9 Nick could feel his heart pounding, he remembered this part of what Evie had yelled at him. He couldn’t imagine being the one to find his parents killed. He realized that at this point even he was crying. Funny, Kris’s voice had become cold, calm, almost had a detached quality. Maybe that was the best way for her to deal with it. “No one is entirely sure of the details. But there were drugs and alcohol in David’s blood system. He basically ran his truck head on into my parent’s car. The cops figured he had to have been traveling at least 70 mph and my parents 50 mph or more. I guess David was following them, or knew where they were, saw them from the other direction, I don’t know. What ever happened, he wasn’t wearing a seatbelt, never did to begin with. He was thrown from the truck. The force of the impact totaled my parent’s car, it flipped several times. My dad had severe head trauma and glass shards actually….” ‘Oh God, can I even say this?’ Kris swallowed hard. Even though the tears were streaming down her face she continued. She said this much, she just wanted to get the rest of it out. “Glass shards had…had severed the artery in my mom’s neck…” She barely gasped out. “They were both dead before we even got there. David too. There was nothing I could do to save them, Nick. All my training, all that school, wasted. I couldn’t help them. Hell, it was BECAUSE of me they are dead in the first place. I should have never left him. We could have gone to counseling or something. Worked it out. Then my parents would be alive and my brother wouldn’t hate me.” The last few sentences came out in rush, almost to the point of hysteria. Nick pulled back and looked Kristyne in the eyes, his forehead touching hers. Holding her head in his hands and wiping her tears with his thumbs, “No, Kris, No! It’s not your fault. It’s not. Listen to me, don’t shake your head. You know this is true. People like this David, there is something wrong with them. He did this, not you. Don’t blame yourself for this. If you would have stayed with him, God, I don’t even want to think about what he could have done to you. You know it’s true Kris. You’re smarter than this. Don’t let emotions, irrational thoughts get the best of you. Sweetie, you didn’t do anything wrong. Do you hear me? You didn’t do anything wrong!” “But they’re dead because of someone I dated, someone I brought into our lives, Nick. And I didn’t see the danger in him. Why? If I couldn’t see it in him, how do I know if what I see, or think I see in other people is actually real? What if I let something like this happen again? What if next time it’s Evie or Chris? Nick, they are all I have! I don’t have anyone left. And, and…Evie…” Nick didn’t let her finish, he just pulled her back into his arms, right into his chest. “Evie is going to be just fine. You said it yourself, there is a great medical team here. She is strong, has a lot of life and fight in her. I just can’t believe she would give up that easily. You have to hold onto that, Kris. You have to think positive. Stop blaming yourself for things that are beyond your control, sweetie. Sometimes terrible things happen and unfortunately there is nothing that we can do about it. What is it that AJ says at his meetings? God grant me the ability to change the things I can, accept the things I can’t, and to know the difference between the two. Or something like that? Kris, there are somethings that are just beyond our control. David did this! Not you. Not you, Kristyne. Not you.”
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