The following message was sent to jeremy by Seth Littlefield . The response was later posted to the SubPop Mailing List and even later to the SDRE-L that exsisted then
Sunday, December 4, 1994
I heard A disturbing rumor about the band SUNNY DAY REAL ESTATE, I
(being from Seattle) heard that SDRE might break up because of Jeremy,
the singer. He supposebly turned hard christian and he is displeased
of their new album that is almost out. Because of this he doesn't want
it to be released. And because of this the entire band might break up.
I don't know for sure if this is true, but I would gladly appreciate
it if you'd respond if you know.
-Seth Littlefield
To Seth and other readers.
I'm sorry that you are disturbed about the rumor of us breaking up. It
is amazing how fast these things travel. Now to begin with, I don't
know where you got the idea that I am displeased with the new album.
The album is not even finished yet, so how could I dislike it? In
January I begin my vocals. Already I love the music alone. When I
finish my vocals and the final mix is done, then a decision can be
made of whether I like it or not. If I did not like the new album,
that would be no reason for me to quit the band. When I look back at
our last album Diary, I look at it as a diary of our emotions at the
time it all went down. The same will be with the next album. It may
not make me freak out in joy, it may not be to the best of our
abilities, but it is who we were then. Yes sir I have given my life to
Christ. For along time I dwelt on a lot of pain in my life. Pain that
I had tried to get rid of in many different ways. I watched myself
slowly shrivel up into a hopeless, bitter and lonely person. Well one
thing led to another and I could not take it anymore so I took a shot
on calling upon God. He answered me. My pain was gone. I was full of
joy. I had hope again. All the hope that was squeezed out of me was
replaced ten times. I had tried this in many different ways. None of
them succeeded in saving me from hurt. Well , I was so full of joy
that I wanted all of my friends to feel the way I did. So I told all
of them, and of course they couldn't understand, since it was
something that I had been going through myself. And also it is such a
far thing to grasp, that it is easier to just blow it off. To give
your life to Christ means to deny yourself, to completely live for
him. Doing this will change your comfort zone that you had been trying
to get since you can remember. You then are a new person desiring a
whole different way then before. Most people definitely don't want
their comfort changed, so they stay away from the idea of Jesus. The
funny thing is, when you sincerely call upon him, though you let
yourself go, He fills you with a joy and peace that far surpasses any
joy, peace or comfort that you could possibly feel from earthly
pleasures. Now, how this applies to the band breaking up. Well now
that this has happened to me, Naturally I want to sing about it. I
want it to be what sunny day real estate is about, so that others out
there will hear. But there are mixed feelings about what we could do
about me wanting to sing about Christ. One of the members doesn't mind
me singing about Christ, another is very uncomfortable with the idea
of singing about Jesus, and one didn't mind but now all of the sudden
does. Well I understand where they are coming from because I was
there. Jesus isn't anything that I want to compromise with for he is
far more important then this music, financial security or popularity
could ever be. So the idea of breaking up has been talked about. I
have different intentions now. I want to take the band on a different
path then they. It is no longer the financial freedom that once
controlled me, but it is to expose people to truth for their sake and
especially Jesus' sake. But who knows what is going to happen in the
future. Every time I make a plan it gets changed. The future is the
future. I hope that we come to a decision about the band that everyone
is happy with.
Well my friend, you asked a couple questions and I gave you the whole
story. Why give you the quick dumb version when you can get the story
where it is. I'm going to say that there is more than what you see. I
think most people believe that. Most people believe in some sort of
God. Some create their own to their own comfort. Creating a mirror
image of themselves, only calling it God. I must say that the true God
is the one who is in the Bible, Jesus Christ. He is the only one
whoever claimed to be God and on top of it all he rose from the dead.
He has showed himself to me so clearly that I couldn't possibly
believe otherwise. I would be a fool to say that he hasn't worked
miracles in my life. When I didn't believe, there were no miracles.
When I believed, the miracles still have not stopped. Call me crazy,
for I'd rather be crazy and see what I've seen, then to ever go back
to where I was. Now dear Seth, there is another reason that I write
this letter. In it I hope you will let others who are interested read
this letter to know where sunny day real estate and I stand, to clear
up any confusion that is flying around. And especially to let you know
of the intense change that Christ has put me through. I'm sure that
you by now can see why. Maybe not through these words, but in the
sincerity that I write this letter. I also intend for others to read
this who are outside of your circle, Seth. These people would be,
everyone in the band, and to all the people at Sub Pop. If my word is
anything, this is the most sincere I have been in my life. Jesus
Christ is Lord. There is a supreme truth to this world, and may your
hearts search for it. Believe what you will. There is nothing more
that I could do or say to show you. Believe me I have tried with many.
Thanks for hearing me out.
With love,
-Jeremy Enigk
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