Concert time. Nothing cool about it. We do some stupid cheer with Dad, then we go onstage. Taylor yells something to the crowd. Like any of them are listening. And if they are it's not like they could hear him over themselves. Honestly I don't get these people, what's the point of going to a concert if you're just going to scream so loud you can't hear the music?
The songs are going good. People don't even know I sing still. I sing Man From Milwaukee still, but Tay usually drowns me out. I do that talking part thing, it's my favorite part of the show. It reminds me of the good ole' days. Oh my God, did I just use that phrase? Shit, where did that come from? The only bad thing about "Baby Bird" as the fans call it sometimes, is that everyone is screaming so damn loud nobody can hear me.
Ike is talking, now Tay is talking. Should I talk? Fat chance, like they'd ever let me take the spotlight. Ike isn't so bad, but he's getting worse. Just like Taylor. They're buddying up and I'm the left overs. I feel like old cheese. Stuff that nobody cares for and sure as hell doesn't want to be around. Three's a crowd, but I don't think anybody gets it.
Concert's over, 'Meet and Greet' time. Taylor loves this, mostly because this is when all the fans fawn over him and treat him like a king. I met a girl once, that was cool. I liked meeting the fans then. But one day I made a joke about Taylor and some chick just bitched at me like a banshee. I swear she was PMSing or something but her words were harsh. I hate these stupid meetings now.
I'm walking in the room, shaking people's hands. Surprise surprise! There are no guys in the room, no breasts, and no girls over age 12. I'm 13 now, and I don't know, I just don't like 12 year old girls. Girls are supposed to be more mature than guys, but I don't think so. I mean whoever said that, if they knew these girls they'd change their minds.
Some girl makes a comment about I look too serious or something. That is exactly the kind of thing I hate. If I have to act crazy all the time I am going to loose my mind. Why can't these people get it that not everything is as perfect in Hansonland as we make it seem. For once it would be amazing if I could meet someone who actually was capable of seeing what goes on. Reading through the lines, something!
"I'm just thinking." is what I told the girl. She smiles this stupid grin and runs to Taylor. That's how they all are. A few more come over and talk for a little while. One girl laughed at a joke I told. I think she's cooler than the rest of them. Isaac gets more girls than I do. It didn't used to be that way. Oh well, life moves on, right? It's just the way it goes, right? WRONG!!! This is not they way life should be going. Why can't I fix things? Why can't I make things right? Why doesn't anybody care about me?
Oh damn it, I think I'm going to cry.
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