April 16, 2001

Out of my Head - Fastball

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then it's time you spoke up too

I've been listening to this obsessively. It's such a great song. Just nice and easy to listen to, but important at the moment. This is what I've been feeling for days. I am glad it's found me again. I love Fastball anyway.

I don't know about Jimmy. I'm just going to let it go, let him be angry. If he doesn't want to talk about what's bugging him, fine. It's not my problem. I just wish he could look at himself objectively. He's always freaking at other people for doing exactly the same thing: acting bizarrely and then claiming nothing is wrong.

Oh well, I'm not pushing the issue.

Other than that, people are being nice to me and writing me email. I like that. Email is good. Contact is good too.
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