After Kevin left, Kassidy busied herself with cleaning the house. She talked to Michael and Lee. It had been awhile since she had talked to them.

At 5:00 she decided to take a bath, figuring Kevin would be home soon. She wanted tonight to be special. Kevin had been working so hard on a project at work, but he had finished it the day before. This was the first weekend he hadn't worked in over a month.

At 6:30 she called Denny. He said Kevin had left a little before 5:00. Kassidy thanked him and hung up; reassuring herself that Kevin had just stopped somewhere on his way home.

Her fears were mounting as the clock reached 7:00. At 7:12, there was a knock on the door. Kassidy ran to get it, hoping Kevin just had his arms full and couldn't open the door.

"Kevin where have you been," she scolded as she opened the door, but abruptly stopped.

"Mrs. Wadkins?"

"Yes."

"May we come in," asked one of the two men standing in front of her. He was in a suit and the other was in a policeman's uniform.

"Why do I get the feeling the correct answer is yes, but it's not going to be what I want to do," Kassidy attempted to joke.

The officers followed her into the living room and took seats. Once the officer in the suit started to speak, Kassidy's life was again changed without her permission.

What was going into her ears was information about a wreck, a drunk driver, and a body needing to be identified. What her entire body was doing was screaming NO. That is every part of her body but her mouth.

The officer asked her if there was someone to call. Kassidy said she needed to go identify the body first. She asked if they would they go with her to tell Kevin's parents. They agreed. She handed them her Daytimer with all her numbers in it. She had them call her minister and her in-laws' minister. They were to meet the ministers at the gas station down the street from the Wadkins' house. The Wadkins' minister agreed to call them and make sure they were home. As Kassidy left the house with the officers she ran back in to turn off the roast.

Once at the hospital she was led to the morgue. The officer's warned her that he was very banged up. He had been hit head on when the drunk driver swerved out into traffic. The drunk had been driving backwards on the interstate. A semi was in front of Kevin so he couldn't see what was happening until the truck swerved to miss the car, leaving a clear path to Kevin. The impact caused Kevin's car to spin. He was then hit by a pickup on the driver's side.

Kassidy steeled herself for seeing her husband lying on the cold metal table. The sheet was pulled back to reveal the man she loved. His face had some cuts and bruises.

She asked for details of his injuries. The air bag had deployed and if he had not been hit the second time he would have probably walked away from the wreck. However, when he was hit on the driver's side the impact caused his head to break the window. The door caved in on him causing a couple of ribs to break, one puncturing his lung. Between the head trauma and the internal injuries it was too much wrong at the same time. He went into cardiac arrest on the way to the hospital and even though they worked on him for 30 minutes they never got his heart started again.

She asked about the other two drivers. The drunk driver was dead. The driver of the pickup had two broken legs. He practically stood on his brakes trying to stop in time.

Kassidy went in search of his family. She told them her prayers were with them and that she would be back in a day or two to check on him.

They left the hospital and met the two ministers. Mrs. Wadkins answered the door and called her husband in from outside.

The officer started to speak but the look Kassidy gave him instantly shut him up. She fell to her knees in front of her in-laws. She quietly told them what happened and that Kevin was gone. Mrs. Wadkins began to scream. Mr. Wadkins just cried. They clung to each other. Kassidy kept telling them she was sorry. The pastors stepped in. Kassidy went into the kitchen and called Kevin's two sisters. Within the hour they, along with their husbands, were at the house and knew Kevin's fate.

Kassidy called Michael and Lee. They were on their way. Kassidy found some paper and sat down at the kitchen table. She made a list of things to do. It was her coping mechanism. She planned the funeral. Made a list of everything legally she needed to do. This was all old hat to her. She'd done it twice before. The officers came in to say goodbye and she walked them to the door. She thanked them. As they left she heard her cell phone ringing. It was in her purse on the table by thefront door.

"Hello."

"Kassidy is that you?"

"Yeah Grace it's me."

"What's wrong? Are you sick?"

"No I'm not sick," she said, choking back tears.

"Kassidy you're scaring me. What's wrong?"

"Kevin."

"Yes?"

"Kevin. Um he."

"What did Kevin do?"

"He died."

"What? Kassidy!"

Kassidy had dropped the phone. Her pastor had come to check on her and seen her drop it before she walked out of the house. He retrieved it from the floor and talked to Grace. He explained what happened, then attempted to calm Grace until AJ took the phone, who handed it to Kevin while he took care of Grace. The minister again explained. Kevin wanted details. The minister said he would make sure he was notified once everything was arranged.

Kassidy was walking through the neighborhood. She was aware her minister was following her while talking to her friends on her cell phone. She had thought being outside would help alleviate the suffocating feeling she was having, but it didn't. It was like she was drowning.

"Kassidy."

"Ian help me understand."

"I don't have answers for you, but I know that God loves you."

"Ian I don't doubt God. I just want to understand God," she finished with a scream. "Everyone says I'm so strong. Why do I have to be this strong? What good does it do?"

"Kassidy I don't know what to tell you."

Kassidy looked at him for a minute. "I know. But damnit Ian God better get me through this."

"God will Kassidy. Promise."

He folded her in his arms while she cried. After a few minutes, they headed back to the house. Everyone had pulled themselves together enough to talk about the funeral. Kassidy called the funeral home where his body would be taken and made an appointment for the next day. She got home around midnight. Kevin's sisters' insisted on staying. The phone rang at 1:00.

"Hello."

"Kass, its Nick."

"Hi Nick."

"Kass I'm so sorry."

"Me too," she said as she began to cry. "God I wish I were numb. I was numb when mom and dad died." "Kass what can I do to help?"

"You calling helped."

"We're all are worried about you."

"Don't worry about me. I will be fine. I have to be. Besides I've got to pull myself together, I'm singing at the funeral."

"What?"

"Did I ever tell you about the fight Kev and I had when planning the wedding? Well I guess it wasn't really a fight, but as close as we got to one."

"No you didn't"

"It happened, because he suggested the Jessica Simpson/Nick Lachey song 'Where You Are' for the wedding. He didn't know it was about someone dying. I told him no then he joked about me singing it at his funeral. I didn't know why it freaked me out so bad. Guess I know why now."

"So you are going to sing it?"

"Yeah."

"Who's going to sing with you?"

"No one."

"Oh."

"Nick I don't know if I can sleep."

"Kass who is there with you?"

"Kev's sisters."

"Can you get one of them?"

"OK."

Kassidy called out and both of them came in the room. She handed the phone to his oldest sister. She talked to him for a moment then gave the phone back to Kassidy. Both sisters left but kept the door cracked.

Nick told Kassidy to close her eyes. He began to softly sing to her and continued to sing until Kevin's sister came back in and picked up the phone. She had been checking until Kass fell asleep just as Nick had asked. She said good night to Nick and hung up the phone, slipping out of the room. Allowing Kassidy to get what little sleep she would get for awhile.