April 9, 2000
Fuck.Fuck.Fuck.
I think i just did the stupidest thing humanly possible. I looked at ultrasound photos, and read stories about mothers listening to the sound of their child's heartbeat while it's still in the womb. How am i supposed to go through with a procedure that will cut a life short.A life that i created. Why didn't i see this before? How could i let something like this just slip past me? Now what the hell am i going to do. fuck.
Well here i am, hours later. My emotions have calmed considerably.
At this point i'm still looking towards abortion. But it's going to be tough. As i'm sure you can all imagine.
