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"He was trying to teach me CHOICE. I CHOOSE my
feelings. I CHOOSE my reactions. I CHOOSE my lifestyle. I CHOOSE right or I CHOOSE wrong.
I CHOOSE to listen or not. They are all CHOICES. God gave me a mind and gave me freedom to
think but the decision to walk with God is my CHOICE. God gave me guidance but it is my
CHOICE to listen and use it in my own life. If I CHOOSE to turn away from God, then I
cannot blame others for my misery."
What do you
think?
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What Will You Choose?
For the past a couple of months prior to going to Toronto's Victory Conference, I
was going through mad trials within myself, my family, and my friends. It was to a point
where it was one after the other. At times, I couldn't handle it. I started to notice I
was not myself. I let so many things get to me and bring me down. Sometimes I thought, it
was easy just to give up and to run away from it all. There was a point where I started
hurting to many people that I just did not want to be around anyone. I avoided not certain
people but everyone even the ones closest to me. There is this saying "misery love
company." It is so true. It is so easy to bring people to wallow in your misery. In
my head, I knew this and that is why I pushed people away because I did not want them to
join my pity party. It would have just entertained my feelings because I CHOOSE to be
down. I let those doubts consume everything that I was striving for. I let it take control of me. During those times though, I knew what I was feeling. I was totally
aware of it. I kept trying to fight those negative feelings. The one person that I did
talk to was God. I told him everything. I lifted it up to God but I still continued to act
the way I did. It was my choice to. I did not let him carry my burdens fully. The week before I left for Toronto's
Conference I promised God and myself that I would open my heart to what he wants for me.
As the weekend began, I waited patiently to hear the message that God wanted to me to
hear. I watched the performance by Toronto's creative team, listened to all the talks, and
worshipped with Toronto's Music Ministry. Through out it all, I heard many messages from
God but it was not until the conference was over that it hit me. The overall message God
was trying to teach me is that I have a CHOICE. I CHOOSE to feel the way I do. I CHOOSE to
react the way you do. I CHOOSE to live my life the way I do. I CHOOSE to do what is right
or I can CHOOSE to do what is wrong. I CHOOSE to hear what I want to hear. They are all
CHOICES. God gave me a mind and gave me freedom to think what I want but the decision to
walk the path of righteousness with God is my CHOICE. God provided me with guidance but it
is my CHOICE to take what God has taught me and use it in my own life. If I CHOOSE to turn
away from God, then it was my decision to. It is nobody's fault except my own. I cannot
blame others for my misery. I blame myself for allowing that misery to consume me. It may
sound harsh but think about it. I can either stay the way that I am or do something about
it. I can let the hurts that I feel carry on with me or I can leave them at the door and
move on with my life. I know that this is easier said then done. Sometimes I see myself
choosing to do what is not right. The great thing about God is that he gives me that
conscience to really think about my decisions. I have lifted it up to God because I know
that I can be weak at times and I cannot do it alone. With God's guidance and strength, I
know that I can do anything. I remember hearing one time "Pain is inevitable. Misery
is optional. Choose for Joy." I CHOOSE JOY!!! I cannot change what I have done in the
past, all the hurts I have cause, or the problems in my life but what I can change is the
present. Pain and hurt will happen in my life no matter what but I choose to rise up from
this defeat. I will continue to fight no matter how many trials are thrown my way. I CHOOSE JOY and I CHOOSE to walk the righteous path with God.
For those reading this that I have ever hurt, I apologize and ask for your forgiveness. I
do not claiming to be perfect and I know I have faults. I know there will be times where I
will fail you but always know that God will never fail you. In my heart, know that I
strive to live like him but it is a struggle. I just pray for your understanding and
patients. Always know that you are in my prayers!
I know that God wanted me to share this all with you. If you can learn from my experience,
please do. Take whatever you can get from this. I pray that you all will make the right
choices in your life. Let us all proclaim Victory in his name!!! Praise God for the
Victory that I have claimed this weekend at the Toronto Conference. I just want to thank
God for all the people who I spent time with (you know who you are) who were there for me
and thanks Aimee for going on this mission with me. Oh yeah to my flying buddies, thanks
for the memories. We'll do it again!!
Take care and God bless to all!!!
In His Image,
Jeyne
(Jeyne Ladaga) Next
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Print Version:
For the past couple of months prior to going to Toronto's Victory Conference, I
experienced trial after trial with myself, my family, and my friends. I started to notice
I was not myself, but I did not want to bring everyone down with me so I pushed people
away. I told God everything, but continued to act the way I did. I thought it was easier
to run away. The week before Toronto's conference I promised God and myself I would open
my heart to what He wants for me.
I heard God's message at the end of the conference: He was trying to teach me CHOOSE. I
CHOOSE my feelings. I CHOOSE my reactions. I CHOOSE my lifestyle. I CHOOSE right or I
CHOOSE wrong. I CHOOSE to listen or not. They are all CHOICES. God gave me a mind and gave
me freedom to think but the decision to walk with God is my CHOICE. God gave me guidance
but it is my CHOICE to listen and use it in my own life. If I CHOOSE to turn away from
God, then I cannot blame others for my misery. I can let the hurts that I feel stay with
me or I can let them go and move on with my life.
Choosing is easier said then done. But with God's guidance and strength, I know that I can
do anything. It is said that "pain is inevitable, misery is optional-- choose for
joy," and I CHOOSE JOY!!! I cannot change my past, but I can change the present. Pain
and hurt will happen in my life no matter what but I choose to rise up from this defeat. I
will continue to fight no matter how many trials are thrown my way. I CHOOSE JOY and I
CHOOSE to walk the righteous path with God. (Jeyne
Ladaga) Next
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Jeyne's choice
On the one hand was misery, on the other, choice
Aimee's victory
Imperfect, but willing
YFC-Indiana
Who watched over Kit?
YFC WERD
Ramon's rhymes
ChiG.A.W.go
Tablo, big bootay, music, prayer, power, peace and kalamansi juice
VanChi Connection
The great advenCHA
Yvette's words
"Don't be a loosery!"
Caedmon's Call
Stirring lyrics of one acoustic alternative sextet based in Houston, Texas
Hello from the Philippines!
I missed conference! I was attending GAT2K!
Victory
Seattle summer 2000.
Prepare for Seattle
Not Hawaii -- yet!
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