I longed desperately to find my
memories of being upon her before. I wanted to remember what it felt
like to live there, as inside myself I know I knew her then. Bear had
said that the Tribes would come and there were those who found her so
beautiful they could not bear to leave her.. so in whatever manner they
dressed, made their homes and lived their lives, they brought it there to the
mountain and a city was formed so that when you would arrive, you would look
and see all stretched over the land, cabins and long houses and teepees and
wigwams and wickiups and Hogans.. and all the people wearing so many different
regalia and speaking many different languages and all living as One in a city
150,000 big.. That's what I wanted to remember as I asked a stone
to be my companion while I walked the first mountain.
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It was a quiet and reflective
journey as I held the stone right next to my heart as I walked. I was
given directions to guide my footsteps... stone shaped arrows were used to
tell me where to walk.... they were funny, sending me off the path, around a
tree, to sit upon a certain stone and reflect, then guiding me back upon the
path.
I felt so high and everywhere I
walked I breathed 'I love you' upon the winds as I searched through time for
my memories..
Once I made it to the top there was
a long pause as I absorbed what I was witnessing.. the one arm of a mountain
went one way, and another arm of a mountain came to it... I had to lay upon
the mountain for a time before beginning my journey back down... And the
journey down, for some reason did not feel like the same path as the journey
up... It felt somehow as though I had entered a different dimension..
There was point when I realized I
had entered a new dimension.. and blind faith told me to thank the stone that
had guided me here and lay it back down upon the Earth. Then I was to
pick up a new stone and ask it to guide me through the rest of my journey upon
the mountain....
Then it would happen as I was
standing talking to a tree that a bird would fly up, perch itself on a limb
a foot away from my face and say, "Follow me" So I followed it off the
path and into some bushes.... Then it disappeared and I really didn't know
what I was suppose to do so I stood there and sang a song to the bushes
(triangulate, before this is over I will be called into the bushes 3 times,
but I still won't know what to do.)
Then once I finish standing there
like a little girl singing to the bushes. I climbed back out, took a picture
of some happy moss, got back up on the path and went merrily down the path
when all of a sudden I heard the sound I longed to hear.. In my head I
talk to the trees, but who would think that they could hear me. then
all of a sudden I hear it, whispered in my head, elongated softly upon the
wind, "Maur--eeen."
I turn and see a tree is talking
to me so I run with bated breath to be near it.. but first there is a wired
bush guarding the tree, so I have to ask it "Please let me pass through here
to the one who is talking to me. Together they stand at the doorway to
another world calling my name. If I pass through the doorway I may be
able to find my memories from the one who called my name. It's him, he
called my name. Will you please allow me to pass through here?"
So it allows me to pass and as soon as I touch the tree I begin to weep and
sob over what they have done to her......... "Look what they have done
to her....." I weep the whole time I am hugging the tree who talked to
me, then I step through the doorway and then I am back at my car...
After this I go for a long ride
in my car and end up at the Ouachita dam.. all of it seems too sad for
words and I don't really know why...
