A Letter to Bok
<Crimson>
Dearest Bok,
The hardest part of life is letting go of someone you
truly love and care for. Harder more is knowing that
he's never coming back. It pains me to go through the
agony of reminiscing the sweetest of our memories
together. Each day as I usher in the dawn, I live by
your memory inspite of my wanting to kill the feelings
and go on with life without you.
Why I am writing this letter? I really don't know.
Whatever the purpose it may serve me, I really don't
care. You may never even read this letter but I know
someone will - at least whoever she or he may be, he'll
have the honor of knowing how deeply I feel for you.
I can't help but wonder whatever has happened between
us. It was full of promises and wonderful plans,
outpouring of love and longingness. Then it happened.
The rest I don't want to remember.
Yes, I can function more efficiently since you left. I
don't have to worry when to be back in the soonest
possible time so that I can see you. I don't have to
think of whether my actions concern you or not. But
all of that doesn't have meaning anymore. They are
simply routine and tasks to be done accomplished. I
just realize you give meaning to all I do. You are the
inspiration behind it all.
Sorry if I blamed you for my failures. I didn't know
how to prioritize things when all went into shambles.
I'm so sorry. I just want you to know that - even if
the damage is already done.
I miss you terribly. Everytime I hear someone knock at
the gate or the phone rings, I keep on hoping that it
will be you. But I just laugh at how silly it could be
because you're never coming back. I'll still continue
writing you letters - that I know you'll never read.
Maybe until such time that all wounds have been healed.
Still yours entirely in the most affectionate way....
CrimsoN
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