number five with a bullet. (lyrics: jezy gray) the clouds boil to a crimson red on this dead winter’s night. and there’s not a thing I could say to bring you back now, to change your mind, we’re heading for the edge now. the rocks spit beneath the wheels, and I just can’t seem to fasten this seat belt. in an instance, we’re miserably close now. this could be my last regret. my grip on the dashboard loosens. I’ll accept the fate for the both of us. the rain still hasn’t given way to our guilt. as we collide, we’re as calm as hindu cows. you’ve got the gun now. it found my neck somehow. spin the chamber. once, twice, three times a dead man.

this years deception. (lyrics: jezy gray) this isn't a song about your lies, because by now I'm tired of changing with the times. So you can just save your breath (the perpetual excuse) for someone with more time than I will waste on you. Ring. "It's my last goodbye, but December is on my mind". Now you are so far away from me, I wouldn't have it any other way. Backtrack: I wanted to see you inside, but your stuck wondering why I'm not home tonight. So you can save your time for someone with more breath than I will waste on you. And this is my last goodbye, but December is on my mind. So you can have another drink and you can walk yourself home (why don't you walk on back home). Because it's all for show: you're invited to the biggest party, and all your friends will be there. We can't live inside ourselves for X amount of moments (last goodbye) and expect the world to stop while you and I sing such different melodies.

a seed of black. (lyrics: jezy gray) the darkness falls on this broken yesterday. your heart is blinding as my eyes cry these tears of longing, desperation. will this seed of black cloud our hearts or will it rise with the wind and be blown to the horizon? can my words be enough to mend this broken heart, or will we blend into the shadows again? your eyes they fall everywhere but mine, and I'm left to decide just what this means while you take the long way... now I just can't believe that I smiled for so long.

illuminated by glowstars. (lyrics: jezy gray) and these just have to be the hardest words I've ever written, the ones that say I'm throwing my towel in so early in the game. needing a call, some form of contact, I sit beside myself to afraid to breathe and knock over this deck of cards that I built for you. and this is my last call, at least until next week. and this time I mean it more than I thought I ever could. all I need are basic things like your company, but I wont say goodbye. I dont deserve to. I didn't deserve this anyway. and I miss all the things that never took place, like the glow stars in your room and the promise we made to put them up together someday in mine... and there we are, asleep on the couch, and you roll over and brush my face and I just smile because I've never felt so content. Now I scream at the top of my lungs: "this will never happen", as I reach for the falling sheets and sleep away your bad dream and these thoughts of you with me. I guess I'm doomed to be a dreamer, because I'm the one asleep tonight.

street signs and landmarks. (lyrics: jezy gray) would it be okay if I walked you home? you'd have to point out all the street signs and landmarks I don't know. would time be stopped if we walk real slow? I'd ask you questions: "what's your favorite record?", these answers I don't know... because tonight I feel alive. and I don't care if you wear too much make-up, just don't let this be over before it starts (before I say goodnight). the street lights play the role of our soundtrack to the evening and all the stop lights sing along, and I'm hoping maybe you'll crack a smile or even join them too, then we'll open this night for all the world to see.

new china sun. (lyrics: jezy gray) summer skies gave way to summer nights. travel to canada to see the northern lights. is this what we waited for? down the hall; second right, second door. stared the sun right in the face, and took a picture to remember this someday. maybe then we can look back and laugh at reminders of mistakes in the past.

another day. (lyrics: jezy gray) waking up with your head in your hands, searching for some meaning to this master plan. they say “you gotta hold on and make it through another night”, we’re searching for our chance to make this right. and I try and say that I’ll raise my head another day, then I’ll learn your love won’t go away like all that has gone on today.

drive-by haircut. (lyrics: jed lane) against all advice, I found my future wife. my parents don’t agree about this philistine. I cried all night long, then I wrote an emo song. how could she cut off all my hair? I thought I knew her, she didn’t even care. without my feelings, I cried all night long. woke up again and wrote an emo song. *note: drive-by haircut is NOT an emo song*

I am jack’s open window. (lyrics: jezy gray) open my window. let the rain in. strike a match. light a candle. hope this never ends. breathing when I can. I’ve felt this pain too many times, and I don’t know what to say (to you). I’m not too sure of what you wanted from me. Like starry nights and bar room fights, I don’t know what you need. the rain comes pouring down like it never has before, and it makes me want to spill my guts for the thousandth time or more. I know at times I don’t know what to say, but the grass feels so good between your toes that I don’t have to say a word to say what I mean. if you found your way back home to me, could I blame you for being so far away for so long?

your dirty coffin. (lyrics: jezy gray) it’s never the same as before. you’ll just get older. you’ll just get taller. there’s a film on your grave that just doesn’t seem to want to go away. well, now it’s time to move on. summer’s gone, she left broken hearts in her wake. it’s been so long since we last spoke. the same old lines: “how are you doing?” and “how’s your mom?”. I’ll hang on to what’s left, and I’ll strangle everything I love out of it.

look real hard. (lyrics: jezy gray) out of regrets today. I’ll kill time along the way by playing a game called “who in here is the best liar”. the cars drive by this place, I’m the only one not in the race. but it’s okay, I’ve gotten used to going home without a ribbon. I’m on my own today. I’m alive, what can I say? It feels good to be somewhere that I’m wanted. Giving up on hope, our lives went up in smoke. You can look real hard, because this will be the day that I die.

you and your good intentions. (lyrics: jezy gray) I’ve been searching for myself, because I have nobody else to depend on. it’s all just me. cars go crashing by, and I feel like I could die right here in this sweltering heat. days seem to get longer. is this supposed to make me stronger? sometimes I wonder about you and your good intentions. there’s a ringing in my ears, and I’ve pushed back all the fear. this time I’m going to take us all out. I don’t know what I’m going to say. I’ll feel stupid about this someday, but right now I really don’t care. the stars seem a little closer than they did yesterday. the air seems a little thicker. don’t you wish the fall would stay? can you reach back and remember when we didn’t have to lie just to make ourselves feel better? and still, you act so surprised. I’ve never seen this other side of you, or this other side of me. and I’ll take us both down until we can go no further, and we’ll wither away like flowers... and we sing.

feveresque . (lyrics: jezy gray) this is a cold sweat induced by fevered dreams of you, but I just can't pinpoint exactly where it all went wrong. and I would wonder: "could it be this corpse of a phone on my bed, or this revolver to my chest?". regardless, this is the last time I'll let my heart sour up again. I never wanted this from you. I never needed this from you. the salt burns like your eyes, it's never over. and I just don't think I can take another night of this empty feeling. I can't take another night of being alone. (deep down I always knew that this would never happen. deep down I always knew that you would never happen). now I realize that this is my life and it's ending one bullet at a time ... this is tragic. this is unforgivable.

the skyline was burning. (lyrics: jezy gray) she's wearing her favorite shirt with those jeans she never liked. she's taking my hand in hers, asking if we could just be alone for tonight. it's awfully early to tell, but but the night has gone so well so far that I'm giving out my heart in hope that she'll make herself a home... "and just maybe we're breathing too soon and we should take a step back so I can search myself for the words that once meant so much to you". now time slips by so easily when you are miles away from me, and I know that you are busy, but all I ask is you call me back sometime. I know how hard it is when your heart is made of stone, but just try it for me, baby, and we'll just see where it goes. now I can feel my heart in my throat, it tastes like the words that meant so much to us both. now you fix your hair for a night on the town and it red with the blood you found in me.