I was close to tears earlier today, as I am right now.
-Erin Knapp-
My head and my heart are both hurting and confused.
Why do you bring up the fact that I love you if you know you can’t say the same?
Why do you need to hear it if it tortures me inside to think about it?
Don’t you know that it hurts me?
Don’t you care?
I would much rather think about you loving her, than think about you loving me.
That way I can think of your happiness instead of my emptiness.
If it’s just that you don’t love me then I understand.
But if somewhere inside of you there is a part of you that loves me, then why don’t you say it?
I know that it wouldn’t be the kind of love that you have for her.
Or anywhere near there, I already know that.
What I don’t understand is how you could have almost said I Love You to me in November without thinking about it,
But now that you have thought about it, you can’t or won’t say it.
I remember you telling me not to keep my feelings inside,
You told me not to ignore them because I would regret it later on in life.
If that is true, that is exactly what you are doing.
You are keeping it inside and not acknowledging it.
Don’t you think that later on in life I might not be here everyday to talk to you?
Or maybe I wont be there at all?
Would you regret not telling me how you feel about me today,
When it could be too late tomorrow?
I am tired of being unsure and confused.
I want to know the truth.
How do you feel about me?
Take all other considerations out and tell me, do you love me?
I need to know so that I can once again focus on other things
And in a way move on with my life
And attempt to find happiness of my own somewhere else.
February 5, 2000
Poetry Links
- How I Feel -
- Silence -
- A Letter to Ryan -
- I Hope You Know -
- Over It -
- Bye-Bye -
- Destiny -
- In A Glance -
- A Stranger’s Death -
- The Rose That Grew From Concrete -
- Never Say I Love You -
