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Kae's AnniversariesHow we remember, celebrate, commemorate.
 My post at MISS Memorial Board: 20 April 2002
Well Kae, my precious little one, it is your day today. I can't believe it has been 5 years since you have died. What a night that was. I didn't know that we would be without you, had I known I would have said a proper goodbye - or taken a photo of myself pregnant with you. We have nothing of yours except your pregnancy tester and our heads full of memories and dreams. We seemed so young then - now I feel about 100 years old. How does one age 100 years in the short span of 5? So much has happened - you have so many brothers and sisters. But they also are not here, they are with you - where ever that is. On the breeze, or in the passing butterfly. I wish I knew.
5 years. So much can happen in 5 years. I could have gotten a PhD, or started up a business. I could have pushed harder with my art work and become famous by now. I could have spent that time dancing and performing. You could be going off to kindergarten. But you aren't. And I didn't spend my time this way. I've spent it with my family, of which you are the very beginning. My first. Our baby. Our boy.
We love you - Daddy's gone off to get a cake for you. We wish you were here to eat it, to blow out candles, to run around the place, to shout down the house, to maybe go for a bike ride in the park. We wish you were here to ask questions, to be bossy with us, to know all the answers, to run to us when you fall and scrap your knee, to laugh at silly dogs and to hold our hands. So many things really......I don't think I can name them all.
Missing you so......
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