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i havent.. yeah i bet thats how it always starts "i havent written in this in a while.." actually ive been using my sketch pad as a journal along with my drawings.. but i figure iduno

today.. was.. dot dot dot.

So my mom thought she had to go have oral surgery today.. kelly picked her up to take her.. and picked me up at the same time.. around 830.. so i got to school an hour late.. there was a sub who didnt care.. another sub in trig who didnt care.. mr cowder had a family emergency i hope hes ok..

make up work for psych because i missed friday along with about half of the rest of the past month because of my mental shittiness..

drama.. oh.. joy..

anyway... it was raining when school let out.. i gave LinzJayne a ride home.. and i stayed at her house.. we got umbrellas (that we didnt use) and went for a walk through town. i was barefoot.. ^_^. We said hi to joanne at the video store and went to see Bill at the antique store but he wasnt there so we just walked around the upstairs art gallery soaking wet.

we walked back to her house... completely drenched from splashing each other O_o.. and then i went home.. fell asleep watching labyrinth(which i finally got back from Linz).. and then went to drama.

it sucks because about 5 peple have been replaced.. delaney is no longer the duke and molly is upset because shes now the duchess and her rold was taken because shes the only one that can handle the new role in such a short amount of time... shes always the duchess.. poor her..

larry shows up and everyones like whos that crazy white mand covered in paint.. anyway he tells me my moms in the hospital so i leave and drive there.. meanwhile amandas being moody and ignoring me because i couldnt take the time to tell her who larry was because well my mother was in the hospital and i needed to leave.. all that stupid drama with those children..

they gave her all this stuff.. i dont know what was wrong.. they told her to call her doctor in the next few days.. shes home now.. after i took kelly home because she wont be in any car im drving and larry brought her home..

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so its been a day i guess... the rain was perfect.. you have no idea how perfect.. but then i ate this piza and felt like shit.. the rain was perfect. so was the town. i will probably end up back here when i am old. i dont mind.

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im trying to get becky and stacey to come here earlier than august.. i miss becky.

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Joel.. is so great.. we bitch .. a lot.. but he is always like.. the only person.. who ever cares. he called me to see how my mother was.. and how i was.. thanks.

not sure how much longer i can make it having to deal with you all.. i wish i could just love you.. but .. im a paranoid bastard.. and with good reason.

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but, nevertheless

Aishiteru.

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sayonara, aishiteru.

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dont tell me truth hurts little girl

coz it hurts like hell..
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