Book one spans from about 1995 to 2001.
Book two is around September 2002 to May 2003.
Book three is from May 2003 to March 2004.
Book four is from April 2004 to present.
The darkest hour precedes the Dawn. ~Mary Baker Eddy
the only thing ever valid is love.
~purple verses by Tamara Jo Blackwell
Breathless Staring into your unguarded soul Tempting what is destined to be Memories. Thoughts. Ideas. My grey sky clears to blue -- Butterfly kisses falling on your soft sweet skin Two hearts beating as one, falling into melody Today is the beginning of the rest of our life--
I see through your blue Skies and into your heart Petals and see you Peeking back into me And I see your thoughts and Ideas of forever And question it not But wonder Where The foundation is That forever is built on Love makes me forget You make me remember For you are too precious To squander And so I seek That which is higher And underneath us
-- My heart cries out for clarity My thoughts and ideas of forever are no question to me, You still search for answers inside of thee I knew from the moment I first saw you Our friendship will always remain true Long will I be a friend to you God sent you to me, I know that we are meant to be Our love will last an eternity I search for the truth, I hear your thoughts I listen to your heart The love for me grows with every passing day In your heart these feelings will stay As the time slips away I shall wait for the day To share that our souls are connected in some way When the confusion has cleared away Your lips so soft, your kiss so sweet Your touch so real, True love for you is all I feel Keeping our memories close to my heart Even while we are apart -- I seek so much I seek it all—now But keep in mind That I have trouble Taking my own advice - I don’t feel like we ever dive in but I must keep in mind that circumstance may not afford such -- I don’t know what To think When you speak Of God Of what’s meant to be Do you know? Do you want And know the logical path To follow? Or does He speak to you? As He does all (though most including I rarely listen) or is it your deduction of logic from the way our paths have merged? ‘tis true, He crossed our paths. But we must find where those paths diverge And though you speak of Thanks for friends’ sake I know your agenda Your love Your seeking for the all That I seek Shall we find it? -- And think not Dear love That I work to thwart You and I I don’t. But I do seek to look past topical love and plow beneath the surface to our substance --to that which will hold and sustain us or break and expose us but if it be true and larger than we two then nothing can stop us and I shall patiently await you -- tell me, love why our hearts our breath merge themselves when we are close when two become one -- Bright star in the sky so high, do I ask too much of thee? He did speak with me I know in my heart the path He wishes me to take, I do know what is meant to be I have been guilty of not listening, This time I have tuned in I shall follow the voice of reasoning Your heart is in my hands I shall take care of this precious gift as if it were my own Don't forget You have my heart as well Our paths diverge Here. Now. I only ask for patience For the clarity that you seek Only time will tell If our hearts do expose us I shall not be disappointed Because I did not fail the one thing that I believe Follow your hearts intentions And we will be free Of all the questions you have asked of me When I close my eyes I think of you Are always on my mind I wouldn't change a thing I only wish for you to be happy And free of the chains that have bound you To believe that our love is only topical When two become one Soul, heart and body (love's trinity) Has united me with thee -- Dear love I implore thee That if thou doest know The Path Then follow it And follow on Where He leads And wait not For life waits not for you Or me But I wait in love For thee -- Our paths diverge “here”, “now”. Then shall we walk or forever talk Of what is or was Or wants to be? My boots are laced And jacket worn And I will weather Sunshine or storm -- I do not deem our love ‘topical’ Only that we know love in a topical sense For true love is not stumbled upon But is cultivated over time in a fertile and nourished heartsoil what we know is of touch and the senses which is why I pry deeper and farther for the substance that is there That we may grow on firmer foundations than that which the worms consume for I seek, love, to love love long and not be led by too easily a forgotten song and if thou be worthy and by my side then I’ll hold your heart safe and we shall walk long but we must walk -- And walk we shall I will follow where He leads For He leads me to you My "heartsoil" has accepted the seeds He planted in me A fruit is growing, A love to last an eternity The touch and senses of love Oh so real But not the core of the fruit I feel so much more My heart desires Your love, your core Wherever you lead I will follow We are one destined to be I hope that the love you "seek" Is found inside of me And you shall "love love long" Never a forgotten song We will walk as one -- A thousand miles away from here is where I feel from you I sit beside I cannot hide And all my feelings brew And simmer to a cool and congeal to a lump and stew a thousand miles from you. -- Your vision of forever enchants me but when I open the door you're not there and I cannot find your forever eyes anywhere. But above all: I love you. -- You are not here—yet I feel your presence perhaps lodged somewhere deep inside me. Your candle burns: my flame of love—ignited flickers and follows patiently—precisely down the wick to your core. I see your eyes. I see your smile. I feel your clutch, and touch your lips with the tips of my desire. The leash on my heart—usually held tightly now has slack line, and my heart has wandered into yours. I believe I may not be able to conceal what my heart may feel, and in due time reveal: a yearning to be with you. I have doubts, fears—even mild intuition yet love covers them all and lets them all fall by the wayside of succeeding fruition. So I give you my love, love and leave it in your hands to rise above the rest And I pray you are that love that last. -- Frustration frustration at a simple thing she is what makes my heart sing i cannot walk out on this limb for the branch will soon be very thin and would not hold these dreams of mine --these would's these wants to share and find and though my heart increasing burden bears it is a hole I've dug--so snug that leaves no room for air should I confess what troubles me a love my heart feels but my reason resists and leaves me in the middle of a tug-of-war of heartstrings not yet mended i want to be free of love to avoid the game of pick up and drop of start and stop because my love is like a mountain of rocks all piled up and once they fall in love with you they aren't easy to stop and so I'd rather stop it now before it all begins unless you cannot could not, for the sake of all you know to be true deny that you feel this as I do for though love can be learned from --shared with many i cannot waste my all on any who doesn't believe with every ounce or wants to fill a void or hole --who wants a new flavor of the week time is short and thee, o love art true and grand it is we who tarnish and stain and look for that which will remain so if your heart speak truth then listen on and find me with your heart's sweet song -- Our Love waning, waxing--a moon in its phase summer, winter--the changing of days here, there--the span of all this height, depths--and all therein is The moon may rise and set on my love But she is lit from within and above The sunshine of summer and winter may weather But my love and I shall remain together The construct of time will tick time away But our love will live and forever stay For neither heights, nor depths, nor thorn, nor doubt Can tarnish our gift from above: our love -- Two become one. -- Human love cannot be quenched therefore let us grow in grace and Truth and help each other rise as rays of light, converging at the Source -- -- The Deepest Cut I cannot eat I cannot sleep Remove my love? This cut runs deep How hard it is To love you so And have you make me Let love go Supreme love Put to the test My heart is ripped out From my chest Don’t read these thoughts Don’t see these fears Don’t see my pain Don’t read my tears And if this love You cannot bear Please remove our heart And leave it there For I only know how To make love grow I do not know how To let you go But go you must to find yourself and put our love upon a shelf Where it waits for you Unashamed Will you pick it up again? For I love you always Tammy Jo And I am not afraid to make it known For what we share is beyond us two -wonderful- and given as gift to me and you. and I wait for you, with open arms. Even now, I wait for you. -- He Who has stolen her heart Is he the ONE? He Who she talks with in private Is he her soul mate? He Who she finds more publicly sociable Will he give her all she needs? He Who she put me aside for Will he love her with an unquenchable love? And he Who she introduces me to as her ‘roommate’ after we have been connected as one she Invalidating and ignoring Will he be there for her when times are tough? Or is he that has taken you away me? -- I am comforted in knowing as always that the highest power is in control. And I know that what is meant to be --will be And I know you and I know our love and it is from above and we are different but much the same and one together in love remain throughout all time beyond all space above us both we bless all. and so though I seem discouraged at letting part go you are my friend always forever and I hope you know that I will always support you as I can I will always be there to hold your hand to lift your burden to help you climb to reach your dreams to free our minds and this I promise to you my dear my sweetheart my darling when you need me I will always be here. -- Forever Unchanged I think back To when we first met: Life was perfect You and I were funny And laughed with joy In each others’ Company And then something deeper We realized And a love was found Before our eyes And so we set out On a journey To live and grow To love and know And we found The most beautiful flower: Two hearts joined as one —two minds growing towards the same sun Love’s trinity —soul, heart and body and two became one. And though The clouds came And brought the wind And rain Leaving seeming Doubt and pain Love has cleared The storm away And given us A brighter day And I think Of us now And we Are perfect —unchanged And will in love Forever remain. -- Watching the moon On a clouded night The glowing orb Moves in and out of sight And when it’s there In your amber eyes I see your soul Undisguised But when cloud obscures The shining light You turn your eyes Hid from my sight And see only clouds On this beautiful night And eyes now turned Look not upon The glorious appearing Of Love’s dawn -- Please understand That when you wanted To house-sit And for several months Be gone We could not Have paid the rent And so would lose Our home But more importantly I do not think I could live Without you here For a day Without you Is as a year. -- Either you have penned a false decree Or you’ve turned your eyes from what you see Which of these doth it be That leaves our love to the worms? And if you be not true to yourself nor true to me Have the decency to be Honest About what you haven’t revealed to me: A heart long turned Now a heartcandle burned And in all this I hope truth you find and lesson you learn -- There is a ring I gave her of two hearts intertwined it took me several months and states to one day finally find She wears it some days and other days to a drawer it is confined those two hearts connected together forever intertwined -- Speak now Or forever hold your piece This is a love to bear A life to share And not something Tossed away with ease -- Walking a thin line Across your heart Eyes trained to see What’s lacking from the start And then I find Perfection intertwined We touch each other With eyes words and hands We share our souls together Uncharted lands And then we find A love we could see If we were blind Twelve long years I’ve waited for you I would give My life to you Now you’ve got Better things to do And I find Indifference intertwined I hear you’re happy Now you’ve run away From what can’t leave you From what will stay Two souls connected by an endless line Two hearts Forever intertwined And one day You will find What you left behind And you will find That it never left you It never left you -- Running away Again Running Running away Again Running Away Again When will you stay? When will you play through to the end of the song? Are you afraid Of what might be? Are you scared To see? What’s waiting For you To only believe Gifts are given But time is short And I hope That sooner Or later When thought arises To run away You stay -- You’ve cleared you out No trace Left behind To remind Me Or you Of we -- What friend Would I be to you? If I could not accept And be friend to The people in your life That you choose? What good be I If I would not lay down Not only my life But everything in between For you? What friend am I Unless I let you go To search and know And be here Should you return? What friend Would I be to you To not bend Where you need me to Nor mend When heart strings Come unglued What friend Would I be If I did not help you grow And reach your dreams? And what friend am I If less than all My love I give to you? Even should you choose To let it fall Forget it all And wear Another pair Of shiny shoes -- for the life of me I cannot understand why I cannot stop thinking about a woman who has thrown our love away without a second thought Indeed the mind is willing but the heart is weak and damn this self-accepted weakness back to the nothingness from whence it came for love love alone is ever here ever near and there are kinder fish in the sea of life than those who cut love with indifference -- life without you isn’t that bad when I realize that I could never lose what I didn’t have -- priorities misplaced they would seem when everything but a tarnished relationship you seek to clean your car, the house, the dishes —all spotless a friendship left outside to rust? —thoughtless. -- So many colors Such beautiful light Your love flickers Fades out of sight Gone But I clutch you Memories I touch you As my heart beats I feel you A lovecandle In me Burns for you But you may never Feel the warmth It gives to you. -- I remember that warm sunny day When you stepped Onto that driveway And walked into my soul Your eyes were alive My heart Hypnotized Every time We were together You were a bird, Flying away, from the nest you made It didn’t suit you And you couldn’t stay But baby you know that’s okay Because it brought you to my life I remember those long autumn nights With love and care Shared by candlelight Building a love To last forever Two hearts discovered —connected together two birds flying away to a nest we’ve made a beautiful home built by love alone and to that we’d stay till our dying day And I remember that cold winter day When the fire in your eyes burned out You told me that you needed a friend But then you gave yourself To someone else You were a bird, flying away, from the nest we’d made It didn’t suit you And you couldn’t stay But baby you know that’s okay Because we shared What no one else ever will Now it’s a warm sunny day And I wonder sometimes If you’ll ever take a chance and stay Or if you’ll always Be flying away -- we shared ourselves we bared our souls all that’s left are gaping holes empty eyes where life once was and now that spark extinguished because of miscommunication and assumptions that were made though an easily fixable problem you left the plowshare blade that took us both to till the soil of immaculate love but now that plow is left to rust unless you return unless you trust our love that gift blown by the wind of indifference will turn from lovesoil to dust -- You might end up with a child one day the way you carry on And what then as you again run away from his father’s unkindred song? A life brought forth on a passionate whim now to you forever tied and with you he must now run too from the one thing that is always true from the one thing that still waits for you that you keep locked up inside -- You laugh when I tell you that I don’t want you in my home Yes you lived here for quite some time and shared a love that shone But then you removed yourself —every trace that you could find and left this home—this love we built to wither on the vine and now you’d expect to come and go every once in a while—as you please but I will not aid in mocking love I will not fall this planted tree And you can laugh as you like but a locked door you will find until the day this broken love this shattered home that I make my own You care to finally bind -- Most nights as you lie with he in the den of thieves I wish that you had stayed home that day that you went with your sister and found me -- I almost was rid of it today --rid of her. You see, I finally let go of that one thing I held on to It was but a long sleeve shirt That had been in my room Since before any of this had happened. That is why I held on to it --it was significant of the ideal an ideal that had been tucked away from sight while all hell came round about the ideal that was and is for Truth changes not but I had to let go of that that ideal. It was not right for me To hold onto it Onto her Any longer It was someone else’s To hold onto now. Besides it smelled of her --that long sleeved shirt And I couldn’t help but smell it now and then to remind myself of that ideal that was And is But now it’s gone. I gave it back. And she hugged me! Now that damn smell That ideal Is back again Full circle Will it not go?! And the hardest thing to Get rid of Or to have to forget Is not the essence of her Left on my shirt But the essence of her Left on my soul -- Be gone Wretched want Of that Which is not Away Thou misguided eye Thou fruitless yearning Thou thorn in my side Leave My soul to be And let my heart Be free For love Is all I see And thou, torment Will I no longer give This key -- I’m glad that you liked the music glad that it fit your musical tastes for the compilation that took two weeks and five revisions is but the score of my heart and I suppose it’s no surprise that when you listen to my heart speak you hear what anyone would hear but it is something important to me for it tells the story —our story and so my heart speaks and you listen but cannot hear it. when I hear what we shared it speaks only you but perhaps this abandoned love leaves heartstrings out of tune and you listen but you cannot hear.I feel a great love for you But I really can’t explain Or tell you of these feelings And walk out on a limb This branch looks fairly sturdy But I carry a lot of weight In the baggage of my mind And the loss of yesterday And if I were to fall Deep in love with you And find you not the same My heart would not remain
Come with me tonight Leave your worries behind I’m going to show you the world above Like nothing you’ve ever seen Take you far beyond Your wildest dreams Cause I’ve got a brand new lease On this life I know I’ve let go of my pain Sent it back below This world I know Love me just as you can All of you is all I demand Cause I’ll give you every piece of my love And take you high above This world I know 12 years lost in the bottom of a glass I won’t wait another minute For a love that lasts Cause life here can end tomorrow Left to drown in a pool of sorrow Take my love And hold on for the ride The place I’m going is The time of your life Far beyond This world I know Beautiful addiction To what is pure The road ahead Leads me to her Nothing contrived Nothing to lose As I walk down The path I choose And I let her inside This world I know And she finds a child In the valley below Holding on to a stone On which inscribed “This is my life The world I know” And she takes the stone And holds it close And we walk down The path He choose
When I hug you My heart is free My mind—released My grey skies Clear to blue When I hug you And when you hug me My world is peaceful —everything is natural Tears of pain Dissolve into love’s sea Eyes blinded by fear Can finally see And everything Is as it should be And no matter what Is said and done All is found in harmony When you hug me
You gave me your dreams I gave you my life We created a love We lived in the skies And we walked down the road That leads to the end And we left our love there With no one to defend The love that we had And the life that we both had known Lay at the end of that road
my love —my heart is like Storm King mountain where I photographed you it is a rugged terrain but the fires of summer have left only ghostly remains of what long was the uniqueness of a juniper now burned to the ground what has weathered many winters but as Spring comes again and waters the fertile soil with Rain green grass begins to grow and this rugged hillside slowly changes back into the world I used to know
She always looks for consolation Never believed in regret She puts a smile on the outside But inside her is indifferent She’ll talk to you of forever And how things are meant to be But a season changes, and love’s forgotten She turns her eyes from what they see And she’s a rebel, A rebel without a cause Looking for an answer To the questions of a vagabond She tries to find love With a heart made of stone The life of a runaway Is all she’s ever known And though you’d help her You don’t know what to do For you are her And she is you
What’s the matter baby? The love’s gone from your eyes Did the sunlight that I gave to you Not brighten up your skies? And as you chase after fireworks As they explode in the night You’re left with only dark and ashes As you try to find the light.
You seek to find That place Where you feel at home —accepted—not alone But as you travel All ends of the earth And what you seek Seems to hide You will find One day That it is no place —but any for this home —this happiness Is found inside.
Our branches intertwine Your soul with mine A love is buried deep A heart is tilled to sow Seeds of kindness strewn about Two vines begin to grow In tender wrapped embrace Both growing towards the light That love is carried upward Beyond the horeb height
I'm sorry for any pain I have caused you It hurts me more than it ever will you I have not always been an ideal friend but all that I need Is you to allow me to change and be a better person I have not always been there for you and I hope you will allow me to be here there to share with you your accomplishments your challenges your joy and to have you there to share in mine I know you don't know what you want what we are or what we've been and I know that I have caused you to question but I know what we have what has Always been and what will be there seven hundred years from now It is a connection that God himself fashioned and that He gave us to have and hold to love to learn to grow and to always be there to support one another I will never turn my back on you and I will walk through fire for you and I hope you will believe that we are forever connected and regardless of what shape that connection takes if we will but embrace this gift and help one another through love —the only valid thing then we will find a more beautiful flower then either of us have yet beheld and there it awaits discovery
"Fight for what you believe in" you say but what if you are the only one that believes? Fight anyway! I am always a fighter —for truth, by nature but what is true? God fashions things But we can follow Or turn away Though one day Be it now or later Eyes must see What is forever Thought turned they be For worse or better And if my fight Be in vain—for naught My heart will still believe And forever see The love that lies In wait to be.
Now honey if I told you What’s really in my heart That sound that’s resonated Even from the start If I told you of what has been Could you hold What lies within? Could you just believe? Or would you walk right out And leave Too scared your heart Might finally see What has been And what will be
Sometimes I wish That I could tie you down Make you stay Make this work And stick it out And maybe you Would give in And stick it out And see the light But then again You may one day Walk out again And though we are Forever tied By love alone And what’s inside If we shared a forever Would we like what we find? Could you bend? Could you grow? In the way I need? Could you just let go? I think you could I know I would But I think you won’t. But prove me wrong And you’ll find I’ll play To the end of the song And if we two Can’t spend our forever As lovers do Then I’ll try to forget Those things we shared The bond we made And call it by A different name “Friends”, though more than this We will always be When you look inside Of you, and me. And friend will I Always be to you But I cannot forget —I cannot loose These forever heartstrings That connect we two. And though sunlight I choose to remember And night I choose to forget Our lovecolors Were just as vivid In sunrise and sunset.
Why must this be The love we shared That you could not bear Will not leave me And why must this thorn That has pierced my heart But cannot be removed For it plugs the hole And if taken out Would loose the fount —why must this thorn Incurred in the garden On the path He chose Be attached to The most beautiful rose And I try To hold what I can —these thorns With bleeding hands But it is fruitless And Forever Now scares me for Ever Is timeless And if I must spend Eternity With nothing to hold on to But the fragrance Of the rose Yet must I still walk This path He chose.
I told you so. Though, You would not thank me, He, Who trampled your love, Any more than I Would thank she For cutting the flower In full bloom Waiting to be But alas, it was not meant Me with you, and she with me. For you've found him know, And I have found her, —our ones; our forevers And now we see That even though You may think you know... —what will be will be. And I told you so.
I The fool For there is no I only we I The fool For the devil knocked And I let him in and I was tormented I The fool For finding my happiness in you for happiness must be found inside I The fool For you needed us to be Something different than what we see You The wise For you have known No I You The wise For you let in No unkind thing Through the door Of our heart You The wise For always being Living happiness And giving unto all You The wise For always knowing What we are meant to be And I Thank you For teaching And humbling And being a friend To me. ~for God
Lost baggage waiting to be claimed: old women and men longing for love Left behind for the meaningless business of misplaced priorities Lost baggage peering from behind dozens of spectacles where the lucky who gave enough love to have it returned are found by loved ones while the others our mothers waste away count the days until they are found from empty years filled with triviality and chit chat If there be heart in your being: find these treasures our mothers and fathers and show them joy and remind them of love
I pray Father may I walk in right not in darkness may I live in Truth not in weakness may I love even my enemies not be heartless and in doing so serve you in grace and meekness
White light! I am blinded. Where is what I used to see? What I knew? What I believed? It all looks different now And though different I have no desire For that which was before For Everything is brighter here No uncertain hope No sorrowful tear No fettered path No needless fear Only white light! That surrounds me here And holds us all Forever near Eyes had I But now I see with my heart Ears had I But now I hear with truth A mouth had I But now I speak with love An though I suffered In that darkness Which I illumined With a candle This White Light Now leaves no dark Nor cradled spark But shines ever forth And lights the way For all to see
one life are we two cannot be for there is no you there is no me for we are all one family only one Mind in reality we find only love the tie that binds and in one love above all human creed in service and charity and in good deeds will we finally see that we are love We are Love and there is no you there is no me so let all discord cease to be for we are all one family
I had to come out here To get away from it all —alone I had to find a place Where my thoughts Are my own To a place—serene, untouched By thoughts of you, or him Where surrounded by junipers, sage and red stone I can find my thoughts—God’s thoughts —alone And as I listen I hear only the wild birds’ Spring song And as I look around I see centuries of rugged constancy That changes only by us —the hand of man —the power line that cuts the land But engrained in this constancy Is a cycle of change And as I see Dead trees There grow more Right beside That are green and full Of vigor That are new and full Of life And where there Is dead grass New blades rise From within Where there Is a dried up flower A glorious blossom is seen And so I begin to realize As with all things—so it is That all here is ever changing And is better than it was And as I think of what seems dead Between you and I I miss the bigger picture—the new flower For what is Ever cannot die But only changes as this landscape And as the wild songbird sings And eyes opened now behold An autumn turned to spring
Für Jahre und auch bevor diesen Freunde sind wir geworden Freunde werden wir bleiben Noch lange nachdem Blaue und graue Wolken wir sehen Für unseren Vater steht sie Über allen Ländern Allen Menschen Unseren Händen Und er führt uns auf den Weg, Den er auswählt Und wenn wir ihn erhören Werden wir Frieden finden. ~translated by Bettina Beig
I should have known I should have seen it coming But yet I must be Always trusting She kept no picture of me She opened herself not unto me She never fully trusted And offered no kiss unto me I should have known I should have seen it coming But yet I must be Always trusting I’d try to take her places But she often didn’t do things with me But she’d spend every chance With other friends—you see And she thinks I didn’t know it Though our souls are intertwined That her heart had found another Did she think that I was blind? Or did she just not care That I could not see it coming? But yet I must be Always trusting.
I would That I could remember The good times we shared They far outnumber In truth and love Those moments of disregard But alas I remember Those things that hurt the most The night I came to find you And you were there with him I then to you Because of prospects Was now just your friend And I kissed you there Unafraid To stand for what we are But you despised me for that —our love And so fell the shining star And I remember that afternoon When I came to pick you up But you changed out plans And unashamed Instead climbed into His truck And that’s when I knew Our raging fire Had finally Run out of fuel Though with care It would have burned And grown And never cooled And I would That I could remember The good times That we shared Perhaps one day As time goes by And brighter things I find I can forget those times You never cared
There were days when I would have cursed you For abandoning What we shared But now I thank you Seeing only as one truly can In hindsight For you would have slowed me down Impeded what must be And so it wasn’t And like the proverbial Neo Though we may doubt And fear The prophecy Is as it ever was And I And even you Are right where we Must be And to the prophecy Hold true
Lies. All lies. What you offered me. What you said would be. The claims of forever and constancy. All. Lies. The love I thought we implored The silent warnings I ignored for you who knew not how to try but only lie. You got bored and found a better diving board to launch you from the world of reality into your conception of fidelity Lies. All lies. And even when we parted what did you tell to make your sparkler believe? Lies. More lies. "What we had never was." "What we did, we didn't do." Well I take these lies and hand them back to you for I cannot bear witness to what is not true and though I see great things in you my time and all I will not lose to even the greatest who is untrue.
If ever I do Less than all If ever I say Less than love If ever I show Less than compassion Or seem to act In an unkind fashion Know that only this Is true My honest being Is found in You And anything else Is powerless; nothing For only goodness Is truly something And so if I seem Wayward and astray Help me to see The light of day For I blind myself More often than not But in reality I wish only to do Those things which are Good and true And as I look For the way that’s plain Please help me to find The way again
Blind. Blind. As I’ve looked, I wanted to see You and me But I have not wanted What’s best for you I have been selfish —to Agape, untrue And so let me abandon The way I’d choose For the path He knows And I cannot lose But only as I leave The path of will And trust in Him And free my soul Can I do what’s right And let you go Free this want Of what’s too low On a mountain of joy And in so doing find The path and strength And freedom to climb Above the mortal Clouds of sense To a pinnacle of newness The stars come hence To shine upon Self that’s forsaken For knowledge of The path that’s taken Which lifts thought To a place most high And leaves anew To an open sky Where once only Dark clouds had seemed And life was lived As only dreamed And as we awake To where He leads He leads us well And meets our needs And lifts us all Upon his grace And now I see thee Face, to face.
You have given my heart Eyes to see Where pride had blinded A drop now a sea For my ways indeed Are not your ways But as they be True life I see For I would those things That I would not In fear, in anger I loose my lot Which was given to me And still remains For He is good And where I see That spot remains He sees no stains And so I leave These swaddling clothes These mortal doubts For what he chose And may I use The strength you’ve given To bless mankind To be forgiven And may I think No unkind thought And may I bring All selfishness to naught And may I give Ah, just give Not for what Might come in return But because it’s right —he gave us light And so in turn May I love all Unconditionally And free my heart And so thus see The blessings rampant And all around True life lost sight of And now is found By eyes you’ve given Us all to see And a drop of water Turns to goodness —now a river Which flows to find A mighty sea
Though oft I would That we had not met For the good that was Is lost in the loss that is But what of it? We are all who we are Because of each thing That has come and gone Stayed or fallen And so it is This world in which We live and learn Get cold and burn For He leads us As we listen And He led you here For His own plan Did he lead you away? It’s irrelevant now But what is of note Is that these things Happen For reasons unknown And so Because He is And this, the good, Is His I shall not toil I will not regret The lessons I’ve learned The person I am But I hope next time As He crosses these paths That I keep my heart safe From the careless hand
A butterfly Is a fragile thing Its energy spent To make itself beautiful Though colors etched In paper-thin wings And it flutters and flies Drawing its strength By sucking the nectar From any willing flower But its beauty Is for naught For though it serves others As nature’s reminder It cannot come near Love’s flame For it will burn in an instant —no substance For true beauty To sustain
An angel Daily waits As the fall wind Blows again And with her feet on the ground She holds on to all earthly things And she can’t let go Of all below To spread her angel wings
I will trust, O lord in thee And not in what My eyes may see For ever —from the start True sight comes From the mind and heart
You Who fear Who succumb To the idea That we are in any way Limited By things material And mortal Deceive your own selves For it is but your ignorance Of that which is Real That hinders your growth And because you Don’t know how to explain Every thing Or can only believe what matter Tells you You will not see Until you understand And only believe And when you trust Only In that which is Real True life—forever Will to you Be revealed -- You were handed the title Of mother And I Child Though I cannot remember Far enough back To a time When you were mother And I Child For I —we; I and he And others too Have had to parent you For though you try And good intentions You have inside You can never manage To even care For yourself And so it must be The title of parent Given I and he —we, of you, of He Must then, now And again Give that to you Which we were not given -- How do you expect To find Life —harmony When you let your freedom Be imprisoned by any opinion And buy it wholeheartedly Though you know It’s not Truth But lie after lie And still After all you’ve known Witnessed and been Healed and found Whole Time after time Still you buy Lies. -- I would help you But I can do Little good for you Until you learn How to help Yourself. -- Father, When comes that day That she flies away From here —to there Always in your care I pray she finds Thy truth, o father —that to which Her eyes she blinds And I hope Next time around [for here or there —life goes on Until we comprehend And move our thought To thy Higher Land] She takes thy hand —what thou givest all And learns to lean Forever On thee And not on the lies Her eyes May see
Blessed is she Who gives freely without thought For to her do I give my all Blessed is she Who never gives up On what she believes Though times be tough And darkness she sees For to her do I give my always Blessed is she Who has the patience To teach me Though stubborn I be For to her do I give my life And blessed is she Who is peaceful as a dove Strong as a rock Who’s guided by Love For to her will I be the same Forever—undaunted by the winds of change And my love, to her, will forever remain.