Lyrics

Just Wait and See

I know just what to say
but I won't say it to your face
I don't know what I think about you now anyways

We have all grown up
mistakes and things fucked up
It doesn't matter cause it's all in the past now

You see this smile on my face
but you don't realize it's fake
there's this doubt now that somehow we'll never make it out there

We'll just have to wait and see
the future will become what it will be
but something is still nagging me

eh? what did you say?
things are always so very strange
whoa! why do I feel like I make you wanna cry?

Just wait and see...

Sorry

so I can't see in your eyes
and don't care for your lies
but it's all you'll give me

to all these games we play
every day every week
'till we're too old to speak

to say we're sorry.

Emo Song

You always write me letters from the road
You always say that you're getting way too old
But you'd rather do this, then spend one minute at home

You always loved the smell of spring time
But it reminds me of the time my grandfather died
but I'd silently suffer just to see you smile.

Everything goes
The way it should go
and here it goes
Our friendship down the drain

We always had secrets we should have told
Feelings that would have been better off known
But all of that's behind us now, I should not have grown.

You never know what you feel at any one time
but I wouldn't think cutting yourself would be very kind
So please ask you this once, may it be the last time.

I'm a hypocrite too
I've seen the color
of my blood
many times
many times before you...

What is the matter?
Doesn't your drink taste alright?
Stomaching it's much easier
than finding your way through life
but promise you this
and I promise you this
and I promise you this

You won't be alone

No you won't be
No you won't be alone
But I won't be
No I won't be in love
And we won't be
Well, we won't be in love
But we won't be
No we won't be alone

Untitled #1

I'm convinced you're special
With everything you do
Everyone should want something to do with you

You say it's a bad thing
that I always dream
slip the knife down my arm and watch it bleed

I'm not the only one
who's thought about dying
Not the only one who's tried leaving. But I have friends.

I'd like to think I know
what it's like to be loved
but then again, where were you when I was at the end of my rope?

Sometimes I'm down, all by myself
and remember her and it brings me back.
to the reality I love and hate. I love her so I'll suffer and stay

Fuck Conformity

Follow the norm
live to get laid
who cares if you're depressed
as long as you get paid.

expensive cars
all the big homes
what will any of that matter
when we're too old

ah
fuck conformity
support disparity
think for yourself
that's the only way to live

oh
screw the unity
be the gap
Why should you care
If they don't like how you act?

Follow the norm
live to get laid
who cares if you're depressed
as long as you get paid.

I am Holden Caufield (work in progress)

Two singers; A and B.

Chorus:
A:Because he's Holden...
B:Holden...
A:Holden Caufield.
B:He's still just a kid
A:And he's trying to grow up.

B:But Something's Holding...
A:Holding...
B:Holding him back
A:He doesn't know what
B: But's it's fucking him up

Our Choice

How can the Government tell us what to do,
When they don't even practice the things they tell us to?
Politicians beware and people unite.
We're not going to give up without a fight

It's our lives
It's our fucking choice.
No liberty, so give me death.
You can kill me, but you cannot kill the noise.

Why must we be spoon fed what's true?
Why can't we figure out for ourselves what to do?
We're not fucking robots, we're not all the same
So stop shoving that TRL shit down our throats everyday.

It's our lives.
It's our fucking choice.
Why must we all think the same
and speak as though we only have one voice?

It's our lives.
It's our fucking choice.

It's our lives,
so fuck off!

I'm sorry

I always wonder why
I can't say what I mean
but I mean what I say
and it always seems
I'm never able to speak to you

Sometimes I'm mad
and I don't know why
It's not because of you
but it makes you cry
and I feel like a dick
but then I do it again...

And I can only say sorry so many times
but I'll say it once again for you...

History repeats itself
Gotta get away
but I don't know how
Now I need your help
to make a change
yeah, I'll figure it out someday...

You always come back to me
or me to you
despite all the shit
that I put you through
I think you'd be better off
if you left me here.

I can only say sorry so many times,
but I'll say it once more.

Perfect Sense

you say I don't have to
do anything for you
But I do
and you smile
so I know I'll continue

call me crazy
call me anything you like
call me whore
call me wench
call me tonight

You don't understand
you don't have to
I love you
but you're not sure
why it makes perfect sense to me

We Won

Sometimes I wish I was back when
being alone didn't matter
Like a child at the supermarket

so happy with the simple things
I wonder just where we went wrong
if that indeed's the case
No one to call my own
No one to kiss
but I'm still glad I've got you to miss.

But what's wrong with the way things are?
we're still here, you're not gone
Nothing's ended, nothings wrong.
We changed and beat the system.

Now I'm wondering if you'll ever find someone else.
I guess that I'm afraid
to think that I can be replaced some day.

It sorta hurts to think that
you'll give yourself to someone else.
It means so much to me, something sacred.
I can't and won't ever give myself to more than one person
and I guess that's why I'll never give myself to anyone.
Because I love you.

But what's wrong with the way things are?
we're still here, you're not gone
Nothing's ended, nothings wrong.
We sure did change... I guess we won.

Oi!

This is a song about how things work
and those of you who know me
know that I'm the biggest jerk

This is a song about how things are
I can't sing
and sure as hell can't play guitar

Oi Oi Oi!

Did You Ever?

I don't listen to what you say
You will leave me anyway
It's not that I don't care.

Try to disconnect myself
Tryin' to protect myself
from all the impending pain...

And you don't seem to care
what memories we'll never share
I guess this is goodbye.

Getting further from the hurt
You're growing further from my heart
tearing pictures off the wall...

What we say, what we do
doesn't matter to you
I don't know what's true
You're not here I'm not there
but somehow we don't care
you don't care

did you even love me?

And you don't seem to know
that you never show
the slightest incling of love

But who am I to say
you won't love me again someday
I am me...

What we say, what we do
doesn't matter to you
I don't know what's true
You're not here I'm not there
but somehow we don't care
you don't care

guess you never loved me...

Ignorance Isn't Bliss

He doesn't know it,
but she knows she loves him
She always had
right from the start

She doesn't understand
his hidden agenda
or his plans to keep
from breaking her heart

And all she wants is to live in the moment.
No thoughts of marriage or happily ever after
It's the here and now where she wants to live
Cause it's the here and now is all she has to give

She doesn't know it
but he knows he loves her
What will he do
When he has to leave?

Will he say goodbye
and meet a new girlfriend
Or will they try to
make it work anyway?

And all he wants is to share his life with her
But there's no room to breathe, no more room to dream
He really tries to live the moment with her
It's fucking hard with no dream of a future.

I Can't Fucking Remember!! (What I Ate)

Now I'm full and there' nothing,
left upon my plate.
But I'm also feeling sorta scared,
I can't remember what I ate.

Oh! Those scrumptious morsels!
What I'd do for one more dish.
Of all the things I hope it was,
I hope it WASN'T fish.

It could've been some sushi,
Or it could've been some cake.
But that will remain a mystery,
cause I don't know what I ate.

Not Alone

I take the knife off my wrist,
You take the gun from your temple
As we look at each other from across the room

I think that it's nice
That I can talk to you
I think it would be better if I could get to know you too

But I'm still Afraid
Of how I'm feeling for you,
I think I'm getting too close, too close to you.

I've been hurt before,
seemingly too many times.
Now I'm almost too tired, too tired to even try.

But Now I've found you
And when I go home at night
I cannot stand the wait
To see you the next day

And I'm not afraid anymore
To say what I need to say
And when I look at you I know
Everything's gonna be okay.

Cause I'm not alone...

Untitled #2

You're shivering
Cause you're sitting naked out on the street
Asking Passerbys for their spare change.

And I can't count how many people are just like you
and how many you wish you were like
You have the power to change
Each to his own fate
You say you doubt me
but in the end
Drugs are just an escape

What do you do
When the whole damn world cracks down on you
And you can't take it anymore?

When You're Not Me

When you're not me,
It's easy to laugh.
When you're not me,
You can relax.

But you're not me,
So you don't know,
Everything that gets me down...

When You're not me...

When You're not me,
What is it like?
When you're not me
Do you like your life?

When you're not me
You can do drugs,
and do almost anything else...

Cause you're not me.

Mr. Doug

I'm sick of your lies.
I'm sick of your lies.
I'm sick of your lies, and no one really likes you Mr. Doug...

One day he came to our school, to our band.
He really sucked a whole load of crap.
He tried to stop us but he only wanted to waive his hand
There' no way we would stop

Mr. Doug
No one likes you Mr. Doug
And the kids say that you're gay
You won't argue, run away.

You broke a knee once, I was there.
I feel bad but not for you
You pulled his chair he fell to the floor
Run your ass right to the door under a desk in his office for sure.

Mr. Doug
You are worthless Mr. Doug
And your favorite thing for fun
Is give them the ol' "Claim and Run"
Run Away...

His wife was really really fat
Never ran and never walked just sit down, and eat, and talk.
She flirted with the freshmen on the bus cause she liked it when they cussed
and old Doug wasn't man enough.

Legend of Needle Dick

Paul Bunyan was a tall guy
Taller than you and me
He would look out over the trees
and see most everything

Paul Bunyan liked the ladies
just like you and I
But whenever he whipped his thing out
Man, it made the women cry

Once he decided to kill himself
He thought of things to do.
He thought he should get hit by a car
Down on 32

They never saw him coming
So the cars, they never slowed.
But even when they hit him,
just ran over his big toe.

Some girls snuck in late one night
to catch a little glimps
They snuck up real quiet like
cause to the giant, they're small as imps

Slowly they undid his zipper
The giant fast asleep
But when they climbed into his pants
they were playing hide and seek

Man in the Mirror

I looked into the mirror today
I saw a stranger standing there
A man of 63, old and with no hair.
He told me to love, he showed me hate.
He showed me what it was, and it was fate.
I turned away and heard a scream.
The scream was like ones you only hear in dreams
I looked at the mirros once again
To Who I was and when I would end.
But I saw a boy staring back at me
He stood there, watching, and waiting for me.
I asked why he did and just as that,
I was in the mirror looking out at a man.
I wanted him to see, to recognize me.
But he never did, he didn't see
Who I was and what I was supposed to be
He never saw the deep inside
That all my life I will always hide
but someday I will take him there
To see the old man without any hair.
To see the hate that was taught to me,
Handed down that no one sees.
Handed down by only he,
that failed to see, to recognize me.

Dream

I can't see my feet but I still know I'm standing alone
when I stand by your side, I can't seem to hide
and when I face you, I can not seem to lie

These things that we fight for are simple and true but I still
don't know why I can't be with you,
when I'm with you, I think I can fly.

I don't want to be just another discard but I know
I still want you there in my arms and the risk that that means
might not do much good as harm

tell me to open up all the doors and let you in, into my heart
but I've still got these walls,
I'm just afraid

King Jr. said it best when he said "In the end
we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
and last time I checked, I didn't talk too much.

Being Afraid

I'm afraid of falling in love now.
I'm afraid to love anyone
I'm afraid you don't love me
I'm afraid that we're done

I'm afraid You'll love someone
I'm afraid I will too
I'm afriad of that person being someone else
I'm afraid of that person being you.

She

There's someone there,
standing behind you.
Does she hate you or does she love you?

You know not why she is standing there
slowly breathing and caressing your hair
If you saw her would you like
To be her lover or for her to be your wife?

Or is she just a picture on the wall,
A person standing there, or nothing at all?
Can you feel her wamth as she is standing there,
Slowly breathing and caressing your hair?

But she is not there,
she is just in your mind
Like all the rest, all along,
she is just a picture on the wall.

All by Myself

Don't want to be here, all by myself
Don't wanna see fireworks by the ironworks,
all by myself

Please can I stay here? I don't want to go home
That place always makes me feel so damn alone
But when I'm here with you, with you in my arms,
I feel like nothing can do us any harm.

But for the times we fought and things weren't alright
Don't want to go home, can I stay here tonight?
Yeah, Yeah.
But for the times we fought and things weren't alright
Don't let me go I need to stay hee tonight.

What I don't like is happening again
There's something wrong and it's stuck in your head
Please let me know what I can do to help
Don't want to make you get through this by yourself

But for the times we fought and things weren't alright
No, I don't want to go home, can I stay here tonight?
I don't want to be here all by myself,
Don't wanna see fireworks by the ironworks
All by myself

Dumb, Friend, and Thief

I steel chords
Fom other bands
and I can't sing

I guess I'm
Just like you
I don't know a thing

I can't really see
The way it's supposed to be
And I don't really think
I want to be me

I can't really see
The way it's supposed to be
Cause I want you to be
in love with me
Once again
Then again
Better off as friends
This isn't the end

Porno girl

As i sit in front of the TV
Wasting away my life
I try to think of where
I could find a suitable wife

Then I think I recall now
I've had you all along
Sitting in a box
in my closet 5 by 9 inches long

I pull you out
whenever I need you
I need you now,
You, you are my porno girl

Welcome to My World

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the whell
of possibilities

My hands keep on slipping
and I cannot steer

And you don't know
how much I love her
You can't understand what it is

I can't help but feel bothered
cause a moment of lust
when everyone's gone
you had my brother

She tells me that I'm so gifted
I feel like crap because it's me
who drags her through
every problem

You cannot know what I cannot say
I love her more and more every day

But I feel I've been taken for granted
Never a "good job, son. I'm proud."
I don't understand it

Welcome to my world

Ten AM

It's ten AM
It's raining outside
and all I can think about is you.
You're gone
and it never hurt so much before.

I can't believe
You when you say you love me
All I've ever been was mean
Tearing you down
ignoring you for months on end

But now I know
The errors in my ways
And I'm trying to say I'm sorry

But you're not around
You're half a world away
and you're still another
two weeks until you're home safe

I thought I'd just take this time to tell you
what you mean to me
I just can't
Stand it now
Being away from you
I don't know how
I ever let
My ignorance get the best of me

It's ten AM
It's not raining anymore
But the only thing I'm thiiinking about is you...

Johnny

Johnny saw his neighbor
naked one afternoon
he thought he'd die
or rip out his eyes
or dig his heart out with a spoon

The kids always made fun of
Poor Johnny and his friends
They'd throw food and
steel their shoes
and throw 'em up on the oof

Johnny go home smoke some weed
You'll feel better in a few
Everything seems to go away even with the residue.
Fuck your neighbors, fuck the kids
That make Johnny feel so blue
Everything seems to go away even with the residue.

Johnny has this one class
The teacher is a whore
She always makes
Him write dumb shit
After school up on the board

Johnny's mom gave up her job
working at the grocery store
Now she stays home
and like a metranome
Tells Johnny to do his chores

Johnny run, go smoke some weed.
You'll feel better in a few
All your problems seem to fade even with the residue.
Fuck your teacher, fuck your mom...
well, maybe I spoke too soon...
But everything seems to go away even with the residue...

Dear Cayla

Dear Cayla,

I think this might be the end.
I'm not really sure if you still call me a friend
I've done something wrong, horrible at that
but I doubt you'd believe that I feel really bad

I don't know how things turned out like this
to think you might care is all that I wish
But then again it was I who said
that we're young and naive and love is all in our head.

I know I can't go back to the day before last
can only go forward and hope this will pass
And maybe it will and maybe won't
but will you hear me now? I've act like a dolt.

I realize now how far away I am.
Falling asleep to tears in my hands
Not even my dreams can comfort me now
I still face my worst fear of losing you now.

One Last Time

I just called my old band director.
I guess i had no one else to call.
I have no friends. My family is gone.
My ex-girlfriend probably doesn't even care to ever see me again.
We've only been broken up a week
and yet I've gone from finding out what
it feels like to be single
to feeling what it's like to be alone.
To those of you who wouldn't believe,
there IS a difference.
Right now I can't help but remember a line she once wrote down,
"... knowing that you at least cast a thought of hate towards me would be better than this..."
But I guess I deserve it.
I'm living with the results of my own actions, nothing more.
And I wouldn't be surprised if she never wanted to talk to me again,
But all I ask is if that's the plan, that you at least let me say goodbye,
One,
Last,
time...

Lucky Shmoe Wally

Wally knows what it's like to love
He knows the pain
He'd rather not love you
than have to deal with the pain he puts himself through
But he loves you and that won't change

So he will accept the pain,
and once again he's slowly being reborn...

Wally's left the building.
Now it's just an empty shell of what it was before
He's just not Chicago anymore.

Wally walks for hours to see
what he is once again.
Torturing himself because
he can't change what he is to you. and the empty building he calls home
He'll remember where he stands and it's not where he belongs.

So once again, he'll turn around
and once again he's slowly dying.

Wally's left the building.
Now it's just an empty shell of what it was before
He's just not Chicago anymore.

Untitled #3

He walks as though he's got a plan
No one knows what it is.
Mysterious, enigmatic, he's plotting the future
and he's watching the chips fall one by one
right where he wants them

Saves everything, hordes it away
He's knows it'll make him rich someday.
He packs it away within himself
slowly biding his time

until his time arrives

He walks as though he's got a plan
He knows just how things will be.
Intuition, Insanity. he's plotting the way
and he's watching the chips fall one by one
right where he wants you to lay.

He owns the world
works with it like a lump of clay
slowly changing it into what he wants
and cuts out the shit.

He's got a plan...

Us, Fifth Edition

I sit here
for the next ten years
re reading what I already know

Left it behind
to remind me what I lost
Left to think about what i've done

I gained some
but lost something else
I don't know what it is I'd rather keep

When I die
will you remember me?
Will you care or even know I'm gone?

I would like
to think you'll love only me
But everything about you is only skin deep.

For you to say
nothing, hurts more than
To hear you say you'll never speak to me again

Let's recap!

I sit here...
Left Behind...
I gained some...
When I die...
I would like...
For you to say...

you still care...

Untitled #4

Left gotta go.
He had a car and couldn't drive
Couldn't take the dive
Didn't want to die.

Survive for years
on crackers, salty dryness
tastes so good, happyness.
is not seen any less.

Awake for hours
to ponder what you said
to remember when you left
why? everyone's dead.

So what's the plan,
Selfless Stan?
Gotta find what you want
gotta go where you need
Leave behind what doesn't matter
Forget what's unimportant.
That's life.

That's life.

Ride the bus
into town the second day
He decided to get away
take the bus down to the bay

Why does he
dwell on memories that
aren't worth crap
are gone, like a life in the past

He's having abortion
of his mind 19 years late
he's so sick of things now and
he wants to get away

Selfless Stan,
you're not selfish man
Everybody has what they want
Everybody's where they need to be
So why not be mad when you're left out?
Forget what's unimportant.
Forget life.

Forget friends.
Forget love.
Forget Life.
That's Life.

That's Life.

Fucker.

I can't seem to think,
What I think about you.

Don't even care that,
I don't care about you.

Don't even know what,
I don't know about you.

But I'd rather have
I didn't have you here with me

Repercussions of My Desire to Do What I Want

Sleep. Sweet sleep.
All I really want is to sleep.
Why do I have to learn Greek,
Just to describe what a face looks like?
Low-opacity red, orange and yellow oval...
None of my other teachers talk like this,
So why must I?
I just want to sleep.
Up late working on art
Tedious, monotonous and boring...
Yet, exhilerating at the same time,
As I give life to seemingly random shapes...

Visual Structures, Shmizual Fuckers.

The Usual Themes

Fadin' like a memory
Everybody seems to see the side of me
that doesn't give a damn

You say that you are sad
and things you do just make me mad
I don't care now, I'm where I want to be

go ahead, put me in your box.
with all your boxes with keys and locks.
the only one you can't escape
is the box you put yourself in.

Go do what makes you happy
I'm not sayin' I don't care
I'm saying you won't let me
so I'd rather not see myself there

Soul Search

Sometimes I wonder
what we're all here for
is it to suffer?

Why's it all feel right?
When everything is going wrong?

Sometimes I wonder
what you're doing then I remember
I don't care.

cause I don't know you anymore.
it's the same old story.

what is the plan stan?
You're not so selfish Dan, man.
I still don't give a damn that
You say you love me,
It's too bad if
you still want me there, there.
don't feel bad it's where we
were meant to be so believe me
when i say
I don't want you,
cannot trust you now.

Sometimes I wonder
if we'll ever even talk again.

It doesn't matter when
but preferrably never.

Sometimes I feel
like I'm sick of wonderin'
aimlessly

Wish I had someone to focus thoughts
I do, I hate you.

Thoughtless Emotions and Emotionless Thoughts

[verse 1]
I'm sitting around here and I don't know where you are
I'm thinking about the past, does it ever haunt your dreams like it does mine?
Drinking coffee with my friends, and you're not there.
No recollection, memory, or fucking care.

[verse 2]
I always thought it meant more to me than you
Now that we're over, you're seeing someone new, guess that I was right.
I'm wonderin' how long you felt you had to wait?
after breaking my heart, two days, you've found someone new to date.

[chorus]
And love is something I don't need
When I was with you, I know I wouldn't believe
And you are someone that I really don't need to see
Cause love is something I don't need.

[verse 3]
I think back on us, on all the stuff we did.
It's so surreal to me, Did all of it really happen? Can't believe that shit.
What was my problem way back when we went our ways?
D.C. was right; the feelings eventually fade away in a couple days.

[bridge]
I'll never speek again. never see, never feel what it is that everyone wants.
Never care. Introspective "what nots". Doesn't matter to me what is done anymore.

[chorus]
And love is something I don't need
When I was with you, I know I wouldn't believe
And you are someone that I really don't need to see
Cause love is something I don't need.

Out of Range

I don't want to know you,
but I cannot seem to find a way out of your house tonight.
And those silly things you say to me
about what you have given me are forgotten, I let them go.

things go on.
people change.
And this love I want,
always seems it's out of range
and I just can't hold on
anymore.

Ask Yourself

Two people seem so close yet they're always so far apart
One says she's happy even though he breaks her heart
Then one day she meets a stranger who opens up her eyes
then she realized that she could live and not be sad about her life

There is no price, there is no fee that is too high
She will do anything for him so she will fly
Do not give up what you have found in him my friend
Distance can be death, the strength, a beginning or the end.

you gotta ask yourself, ask yourself
what it is you're looking for
then you gotta search within yourself in yourself
to open up that door

But ask yourself, ask yourself
who it is you're hurting more
when you tell her that, tell her that
you don't love her anymore...

Halfway round the world is where she resides...
but there's a univerese between them in their minds...
what will they do when the push comes back to shove
will they tough it out or just say that it was fun? What is love?

Two people seem so close yet they're always so far apart
One says she's happy even though he breaks her heart
Then one day she meets a stranger who opens up her eyes
then she realized that she could live and not be sad about her life

[Guitar Break]

you gotta ask yourself, ask yourself
what it is you're looking for
then you gotta search within yourself in yourself
to open up that door

But ask yourself, ask yourself
who it is you're hurting more
when you tell her that, tell her that
you don't love her anymore...

Love Poem #1

I think it's pretty worthless
how I can never really say what it is I want to say
I think it sucks to know that I can't tell you what's on my mind

I'd love to say I love you,
but we're just too far away. I'm not going to hold you
back, let you find love in someone who can be there.

I know it's for the best,
but it still hurts a lot inside. I don't know you as well as I'd like
but I know you more than I know most anyone else.

I guess I'll keep searching.
It seems as though I always want what's too far away
I'll always want whats out of reach, impossible... your love.

Walk Along

I remember a time now
when I was just like you
with the knife pressed against my wrist,
I didn't know what to do.

But I looked into myself
to see what I could see
and I saw that there was nothing
there that I didn't want to be

so now I walk along in the same old way
listening to the same god damned old song
pictures in my mind. I think of you
realizing how I always lose

But I've forgetten what it feels like
to love or to be loved
so I will keep walking day by day
until my life, it fades away...

Untitled #5

She says she's the shittiest person in the world
but she is wrong
I made the mistake of saying I don't care about you anymore
and now she's gone

four years have passed like it was four days
gone by like it was a blur
80 years will come and 80 years will go by
but it will be spent with out you by my side

Sometimes I swear You never really loved me
Sometimes I'd swear I don't care
but I swear wherever you are in this world
I swear, I'll always be there.

Leave me Alone

A year ago you told me
that you'd never give
to anyone else what you gave to me...

You're a fool to think
you can fool me now
that I know it wasn't me you loved

What did you give me?
Whatever it was I know
It's gone now, I don't feel it.

Now I'm saying go ahead
Go away and give it
away to someone else, some other fool.

What were we?
We were nothing.
We were so naive
to have believed.

I try to forget
but you just won't go.
don't come back
leave me alone.

The last reminder I've got
Fades away a little more.
I wish it away, it burns my chest.

When will the day come
I can lock you up deep inside.
Within my mind, where no one can see.

When can I be free
of you like you are free of me?
When will the day come when I can put it all behind me?

You move on and I stay here
Trying to remember how I feel
don't recall what it's like to be loved.

What were we?
We were something...
We were so naive
to have believed that was love.

I try to forget
but I just can't let go.
Please never come back.
Leave me alone.

A Song About You

I'm sure this world is destined to burn
And this girl is destined to learn that I love her
What's the point of being you,
when you're just like someone else?

Nights spent on the hill in my car
taking pictures of all the clouds
can't forget all the times we couldn't let go
can't forget all the stories we told

Looking across the cafe one day
I saw you sitting with your friends
The pain that I felt to see you that day
Without me but with a smile on your face

If You Say It

Everybody wants to know what the future is
Everybody wants to know what dreams will be
and what the world is like, will you like this damn world on the other side?

I don't really care what the future holds
I don't care if the world is destined to explode
all I really want to know is where I'll be when you fall in love with me.

and if you say you will until you die, I'm free

Why is it so hard to find
what everyone seems to have?

In My Dreams

If I had a car
I'd leave
leave it all behind me

Drive somewhere far
over the hills
and past the trees

In my dreams
I'm free
In my dreams
I'm loved
In my dreams I can do what I want

In my guitar
I find peace
but it last for only so long

I play my songs
but then the peace I find
is suddenly gone

In my dreams
I'm alive
In my dreams
I believe
In my dreams my life is what it should be

Who cares about dreams?
Not me.
What's with all these dreams?
I don't care
When I am awake I'm just glad that you're there.

If I had a girl
I love her
as though time never had an end

But when I find love
it dies
and the process starts over again

Venting Frustration on a Thursday Afternoon

everyone needs time alone
and it feels good to be alone
without you

and everybody needs a place
where they don't have to see the face
that taunts them so

all the little things we say
just don't matter
nothing's gonna be the same
so don't bother.
I don't see why you want this
was it really that special?
Cause all the time we fight and
it just doesn't make any sense.

Everybody needs someone to love
And I know we used to love
why not anymore?

I just need someone to have
who completely understands

Cayla pt. II

Some people like to feel bad.
Some people are happiest when they are completely miserable
Some people are just like me

I know I'm not always what you want
I know I'm the the kind of guy who might be
I still feel bad. Somethings were just not right.

Fireworks never looked so real without you
Sleeping in the late afternoon never seemed so nice
But you're gone...

I know I can't write
I know I can't sing
I'm not gonna dance for you

She never says anything at all.
When we fight we talk about things that don't matter
We talk about us.

True we slept together a few times
lazy afternoons after open houses at her house
I stared at the ceiling

A few weeks ago I stopped talking to her
I stopped listening to her
I started listening to the little voices in me that tell me to hate.

It's the never ending story of Cay an I
I'm not sure when it started, not sure when it'll end
but I'm glad I can call her friend.
It's the never ending story of me.

Try my hardest to hate you
at times I get it right
but months later I remember what it's like
to talk to you.

Intoxicating as it is
I don't know how I went sober for so long.

Goodbye America, Goodbye You.

I think it's time to say goodbye to america,
Cause I think America has said goodbye to me
I'm beginning to think that I don't belong here
Now I'm wondering where I'm supposed to be.

And all the time it's staring me in the face
Making me know how close I am
But those who know me well enough to see
are the ones that make me wanna stay

The Same Old Thing

You say you want me but I cannot believe
all the things that I see
things you say to me
I sit here and I wonder why
we always told the truth
yet we always lied
Can two people afford such misery?
Can two people offer such pain?
We have so much yet to learn
Four years down
Four years spent in clouds
I'm going on
You've already left
and we haven't said our goodbye's

Untitled #6

Once chance at perfection
One try to get it right
Why does everything keep beating our minds with the idea what it has to be like?

I'm not the person
You want me to be
Fuck conformity, if that's the price to keep my dignity I'm out on the street.

Little johnny was a cool ball of silence
He always tried to do things right.
Then one day he woke up and realized
that didn't matter cause it was his fucking life.

Go johnny and do what you want to do
Go johnny don't always do what's right

Another Cliche Pop-Punk Love Song (unfinished)

I don't know why you would believe me when I say
I love you cause I know this feeling is fading
what happened between us? the world can't believe it.
Now it's gone so are you I've got nothing to hang on to.
except this stupid bout I fight with eternal self doubt
It's winning, I'm losing and It starts again...

Who am I?

I don't want to leave
but I can't stay here
Cause I just don't know where I belong

Everythings telling me
to follow my heart
but it's hard cause I've ignored it so long

So what am I supposed to do
I suppose you're not the person to ask

Cause my whole life has been building to this
and now it's climaxed at it's falling apart

Where's my heart?

Mom dad tell me one thing
I know they aren't wrong
But I know it's not the right way for me

But it's not them that's hard
to try to convince
it's me who doesn't know what think

And I go on asking
everybody i can
"What the hell do you think I should do?"

But they all give the same
goddamned answer
"Buddy, this choice has got to be made by you."

What do I do?

Now I'm one down and out
and three more to go
if I don't get my head straightened out

Now I think when the time comes
I hope do what I want
but right now I've got my doubts

Cause I can't stand up
to the people I love
I can't tell them what's up

I can't show them my mind

Leaving Today

I've hung up my hat
packed up everything that
meant anything and everything to us

I've packed up my bags
I'm not coming back
I've picked the lesser of two evils
so I don't feel bad

that I'm going away
there's nothing I can say
to say that I'm sorry things turned out this way

And I'm sorry that I couldn't be all you wanted of me

Some friendships are broken
others are made
I'm sure I'll think of you every day

cause it's not easy for me
to just get up and leave
If you don't say what you mean
you don't say anything to me

But I'm sorry for things said
and things that I did
I never meant to hurt you at all

and I'm sorry that I couldn't give more of what you wanted from me.

And every day what if's are running through my mind
what if we hadn't met or what if we hadn't been so kind
Would we have met someone else or no one at all
I'm not sure how I would've survived.

But it's all in the past
and we're leaving at last
but we're going in opposite ways.

When people like me can feel the way I feel
Why shouldn't they feel bad when they look at their lives?

Life can get real lonely
when no one's by your side
Oh life is really lonely
when no one's by your side
But I'm not gonna hang with you, girl,
cause that's a waste of time.

Four good years with you girl
we had our share of bad ones too
Four good years with you girl
of course we had some bad times too
I never saw it coming
cause girl I was deep in love with you

You call me up and tell me
That you're not ready for this.
You call me up and tell me
that you're not ready for this.
You just left me standing
confused after one last goodbye kiss.

Life can get real lonely
when no one's by your side
Oh life is really lonely
when no one's by your side
But I'm not gonna hang with you, girl,
cause that's a waste of time.

Things're flying through my head now
and I don't know what to do
Things're flying through my head now
I don't know what I should do
I guess I'll suck up my pride like everytime
and realize that we're through.

So I made a bad decision
And I let you slip away
So I made a bad decision
And I let you slip away
But I never thought I mattered
so long as you were happy this way

{bridge}

Six months gone I spent it
Feeling sorry for myself
Six months gone I spent it
Feeling sorry for myself
On the seventh month I turned around
and saw somebody else

Life had gotten real lonely
when love had faded and was gone
Oh life was really lonely
when love is left and done
But I'm not gonna hang with you, girl,
I've found another to give my love