Friday, 27 August 2004.

Stephanie
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Playing at home
Topic: Stephanie
 

Stephanie I met you a few days ago on a dating site. And now I simply can't wait to meet you. I have been looking for you, every day, your face is so close. Who are you? Stranger, living so close by. I feel attraction towards you, but don't want to be too pushy. I don't know what to think. This is too new for me. What are those thoughts and feelings, these dreams I have? Hope? Maybe. Precognition? Maybe. I am waiting for you. Day after day. Opening my mailbox, to see if you wrote me. Holding my phone, waiting for you to send another message. I am so stupid. Who the fuck are you? I got inspired by her. Her photo's, her poems and small notes. So true and real. It brings me to me. No stories from the past, but feelings from the present. What should I write? It's not that I don't enjoy my days, but glorious they aren't either. That's why I started this website. Because I miss her, her smile next to me. Someone I love. And I am waiting for you.

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Friday, 27 August 2004

Tischa made this picture
Mood:  happy
Me shopping. Just an ordinary guy.

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Tischa
Mood:  happy
Topic: Tischa


Topic: Tischa


Tischa watching

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Wing Chun
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Sports.
Topic: Wing Chun
Started to practice sports again. Took up an old discipline. Martial arts. The teacher is good. I like the stile. He showed his techniques on me. I felt young, and pretty good. I like this stuff. I am 40 and still kicking high!

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Meeting Stephanie
Mood:  blue
Topic: Stephanie

There we are, waiting for my internet date. But no, I am not lucky today. Although we had fun, she was not there. Bummer. Is this mend to be? Relax. Life makes it's own rules, and so do people. Actually better. I had a headache. Didn't sleep well, and I think the active cole filter fan was on low speed, and some gasses took a hold of my health again. Non the less, I was disillusioned. Why didn't she tell me in time? It is not nice to let people wait, and then apologize. What about a phone call one hour before! I might be late... What to do. I went for a fun day, and got one. We went into the cinema, and just inside, settled, we found out, we were an hour early. No wonder the seats were all empty. Lets go tomorrow!

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The Statue garden
Mood:  cool
Topic: Tischa

Tischa between huge rabbit ears...

Sitting in a chair,
that was just there


He's the man
She is the girl

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Party at living community
Mood:  bright
Topic: Tischa
The children's party was fun. I fell asleep against a wall, while Tischa had her face painted like a tiger. After the short sleep, I felt fit again, the headache was over. Tischa went out spending money....  She had to go deep! But it is ecstatic!

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At the party
Mood:  chilling'
Topic: Tischa
And yes! The price...

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In the garden
Mood:  energetic
Topic: Tischa
Yeeeaaaahh!

They have a fortress. All the kids..

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Friends
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Gerry Rafferty
Topic: Friends
Now I forgot a story. Abodha called me the other day. We keep in contact, since he is struggling with his health. When saying goodbye, he said he wanted to know how I was doing, despite his weakness and sleepiness, and called me his sun. Then I said 'goodbye dad'. it was a shock for me. I haven't said this in about 14 years, let alone, felt this bond, that was there just now. Since my family fell apart, I wasn't allowed to call my mother 'mom', and dad left for Africa. And nobody has ever adopted me, as much as I would have wanted this. Now I am 40, and this 'elder' good friend, I suddenly call dad, and he calls me his sun... I like the feeling, but I don't know what this all means...

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Stephanie and herpes .